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the way i was talking about the ravana fight earlier today w sarita in very similar terms which is really the only way i ever talk about the fight w ravana bc thats what it is

okay dude, i know you wanna fuck the primal from the dravanian forelands, we've gotten your confession 385 times, we get it, you love fucking big ass ants, stop fucking submitting it.

please

omg i have a friend who knows jp and they have been complaining abt this so much but i only vaguely understand whats going on

i managed to take this 2 sec before it started raining

i miss this fucking game so bad

this is always how my fanfic writing starts off....too much explanation hahahaha but im posting it bc i really doubt ill get back to it 😵

The halls of Pandaemonium were much quieter now. The facility being all Erichthonios really knew, he felt the change keenly, but could not place it--something alongside the recent loss of both keywards and creations. They were currently going through reconstruction. He saw more of his fellow workers around than before, and delighted in being busy with the restorations; but the halls echoed in the nights, and he often found himself alone. Lahabrea was one of those he saw more frequently. Mostly in his formal capacity as chief keyward, which despite everything came as a relief. He had no expectations for anything warmer and was unsure how he'd react if it happened, though the thought occasionally nipped at him. It was common for him to be told he felt too much--too strongly--but he had long left behind the folly of wanting affection from his father. Recent events had conspired to shame him for wanting affection at all, but that wound was fresher, and he kept it out of his mind.

Still, things had improved. His father being unlike a father he preferred to being the object of his anger. His anger he'd formed into resolve, steady and cool. But he missed the burn of his strong emotions. Something had left or dissipated along with his past misconceptions and despite knowing better, learning better, he wanted it back.

erichthonios shy/embarrassed after having everyone see the soul bonding Wol not knowing what that is the inadequacy of his magic skill in regards to themis i think having his feelings tampered with would make him struggle regardless of how positive he is he had irrevocably lost something, relies too much on a guiding hand; that hand becomes themis for awhile. He wants love

i forgot i started writing a post-pandaemonium erichthonios char study-like fic over a yr ago after i played it wtf.. somewhat erichthonios/themis "if you squint"bc i love genfic vague romance more than anything.. the last img is my notes lolol??

when i finally find adhd meds that work and replay pandaemonium

you're so locked in always

ok bsky never wants me to post the way it uploads my art in the worst quality ever like ok i get it

ooooh okay thank you i'll take a look... i was under the impression the sites i linked were using iframes which is what was giving me trouble but i'll poke around w what you said :o TYYYY also ikr his art is so cool..

dropped my muscle relaxers bc i drop things a lot often bc of my wrists and lost two of them... im hoping it'll be like last time where ill only need like 3 or 4 of them and not the full course bc im really going to crash out otherwise

oh im using a lightbox sort of thing rn! what im trying for is more like this www.tadahirouesugi.com or this when you click pict emaema.sakura.ne.jp

OMG I RECOGNISED YOUR ICON ART STYLE IMMEDIATELY help i didnt know you followed me here help thank you youre so kind

coding actualyl scares me a little like im so reluctant to start figuring out this gallery using iframes im imagining but what choice do i have i hate settling on something easier

honestly rereading the things i wrote in 2024/2025 like my thoughts/ffxiv rants/fic its interesting 2 see where i became a lot better at using words and expressing ideas.... the latter is still very hard for me but its kind ofcrazy how reading actually makes you smarter

i should also consider an rss feed but i kind of like being searched for rather than sending out update notices. anyways if my new meds can make my arm stop freaking out ill write my review of the new enha album 🤓

i could figure out using a static site generator for my website like a kind tumblr user suggested but atm im relying on the fact that my updates are infrequent enough 2 make doing them manually not too much of an issue

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tyyy my liege 😽

oopps some of those imgs are blurry 😗

im pretty sure that last one is like a cover for some uriancred comic i have mostly drafted out but god alone knows when it'll become more than a draft

wip hell 🙁

thought about meteion for 2 sec and started rewriting endwalker in my mind

omg i like this a lot

yeah i got a bit past that maybe like one arc after that? but theres a specific thing it does i personally cant take so i stopped reading 😵

this manga kind of comes off to me like when a manga is actually the authors torturous thought experiment

ohhhh okay i use it negatively as well or ironically @ myself when my point is that it's unhealthy, but if the object of affection isnt an idol it kind of makes no sense lol