az🍎 @ fanfest prep

maybe i need more stabilizers or something but my art on procreate always ends up so jittery

not that i can handle any more people in my life anyway and my circle is already pretty small

only way to find community is to interact with it, yeah whatever

i did manage to reorganize some pokemon cards today tho #win

wanna play games like normal but i have too much anxiety to get out of bed

ヤ・シュトラの姉妹たち
#FF14 #FFXIVART

its so loud that im pretty sure the whole building can hear it and i think theyre outside too

at work at someones yelling at their kid Ok.

bpd is all fun and games until i scream and bash my head in until i knock out for a few hours

ughhhh my statics in such a bad spot rn

very dysregulating day today, my tipp was walking into the costco freezer room

MARIO DAY!

some citizens from lake lamode from odyssey 🌊🪼

went without ac for a month during the summer last yr and the so called fixed ac is bumming out in only 85 degree weather

and pollen is back so im sneezing 24/7 despite only going outside for like 5 minutes a day

i live in an ancient building so the ac is just bad. its set pretty low but its still 80-85 and my computer is not making it better

i have no temp regulation because of genetics and taking antihistamines so i just cant do anything without feeling lightheaded and bad

today is just full of things i dont want to deal with and my mom wants a design done by tomorrow ughhhhh i cant do anything while the sun is up because the office is 85 degrees and its actually miserable

treadmill fail (6k) but i was dying bc its over 85 degrees inside and it was just getting uncomfortable and bad instead of helping me feel better

my opinion is that TRD is usually indicative of something else and chronic depression/anxiety are more like symptoms than standalone disorders AND mhps want to box you into whatevers easiest for them to treat

the diagnosis feels like "regular treatment didnt work but we're still gonna try the same things over and over haha" and then nothing gets done because its not like the 10th medication is going to magically work

tuesday night

did not drop at all 👍

tbh i dont like the diagnosis of treatment resistant depression bc i feel like docs should look at illness differently if their solutions keep not working.

the same way caffiene has a random effect on me, psychiatric meds also seem to have a random effect on me.

this is the amt of stickers i ended up wanting to be at so yay
next project is static sticker sheets which i need to look at a cricut guide for erm

i hope they have the quiet room again because i kind of need them at any con i go to so i dont freak out

i have a brick of like... 600 stickers for fanfest, ill probably not be able to trade all of them bc i struggled to trade 300 last time and my social battery is worse now

i started reading tsukihime and i got my first ending today (think its the first possible bad ending) im using the browser version so i cant help but fill out as much flowchart as possible bc i read the day 1 lunch scenes like 8 times

this ones 3k rdps higher than my last best because i keep eating damage downs during bats (i didnt today yay)

ok this one might stick