Chris

im getting tired

i loved and cared the best i can

i just wanted to love and feel safe enough to love. but i havent felt safe for too long.

and then it becomes even more devastating when the built up resentment makes you hurt them in return. i cant live like that

its so exhausting and damaging to slowly but surely lose yourself trying to love someone when things dont change for the better even after so long. even worse when you know theyre a good person but they still keep on hurting you bc of how fucked your dynamic ended up being.

im gonna lose my mind i wanna see a therapist or else im gonna blow smnthn up

do i keep making excuses

sometimes it feels like i dont have any right to be unhappy/upset about my traumas. like having all this damage means nothing compared to everyone else.

probably rsd idk, shame

hnnnn

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Thank you so much for your support!❤️🐍

its easier to internalize it and then neatly lock up gross feelings of shame in a lil box in your head n pretend it isnt there

i need to just shut my brain down and calm down

haha oh boy im a fuckin clown thats what i am

i consider these to be my vashwood classics (straightenes my expensive designer tie) #vw

🖇 or whatever insurance agents are doing at their job

:^))))

hi cam

when will my meds arrive holy shit

im gonna throw up im so emotionally dysregulated and i can feel the depressive episode coming in which might be worse bc of my pms

rsd is a biiiitch

its a queer romantic bond tnx

i love 1 girl

okay my bad nothing about all of that was platonic at all

Demi and Mina

👁👄👁✨️

I cant wait for witcher ciri