I've lost around 5 kg weight in 2,5 weeks... either its caused by the stress or eating different really does the trick after all.
Not that I'd complain, but if the second's the case I have one more reason to look forward to my new life.
awawawa
I think I've just came up with the perfect revenge-plan on my dear ex-bosses and colleagues.
It will finally pay out that half the town knows me - and that I have good connections to all of them.
It has the potential to become like a witchhunt 💅
A little boop from Zeraora
This one's not even a month old and it aged like a fine roadkill. At least the circumstances.
Oh, and here's the link for this. Japanese though!
my9games.com
9 games that made me who I am -
Had to dig deeeep into my childhood-memories for the most part, but I can't say that I associate bad memories with any of it.
Even thinking about how me and my sister were playing GTA all the time, just fooling around... as we were 11 and 9 years old... good times.
@hackintimseeley.bsky.social
Hug me until I smell like you
#ferret
But as I already mentioned before, the moral of the story: Don't let your work, good as it may seems, become your whole being. It will never be worth it - you're replacable. Keep a healthy distance to everything work-related.
And: Treasure your friends, as they'll be the light amidst darkness
It is a huge step in many ways. I always talk about it as a "Hard cut" mentally-wise. But it's "just" a new chapter of life. Maybe a chapter, that finally brings light into my previous dark life.
At the end of March, I'll officially work as a bavarian citizen - going further step by step.
2 of my 5 applications were successful - at a notary and at the court. Lastly I chose to go with the notary. Today I signed the contract.
Which means, that my wish of living near the alps in Bavaria, very close to friends, really comes true 💚
A short Life-Update:
I was fired from my job while I also intended to quit. My ex-bosses were expecting me to work until the end of April after that, but with me quitting, I just have to bridge March - which I can without any trouble.
At the same time I applied for other jobs - in Bavaria.
All that because bullying me at work seems to be encouraged by my boss.
The lecture from that: It doesn't matter how much you sacrifice for your job, how good you are at it, how important you are, how much money or clients you bring in or what a "good family" you all are.
You're just a worker.
Because after I did ride both for the first time, as strong as my fear was, I couldn't stop riding them and enjoyed it to the fullest.
I know that its a totally different situation with nothing being in my control currently; only being able to hope and pray that -something- works out somehow.
I'm absolutely fricking afraid of everything that happens in the (very) near future. Regardless of how it'll end.
Its comparable to how I felt when I first wanted to ride a rollercoaster or the Free-Fall-Tower as a 14-year-old. But I'm trying to also cheer me up with this comparison -
Just to show some lifesigns: Life's still a total b*tch to me. Now more than ever.
I'm on the verge of quitting my job, but it depends on how other people decide certain things. This goes hand in hand with me moving out for the very first time; to the other end of germany.
@lhykos.bsky.social wanted to experiment with his hair a bit... so I had the duty to change it. Nonetheless its been forever since I last drew him, so it was a nice change again to get back a bit into drawing.
#dragon #furryart #furry #scalie #art #digitalart
Dig, dig, dig, dig, deeper!
Dig, dig, dig, dig, deeper!
Delve, delve, delve, delve, deeper!
Weep, weep, weep, weep, weeper!
Hah! Oh well, It's probably not the most original or dynamic pose for him, but I tried my best to make it at least look cool!
A goddamn spam-call interrupted my nap...
I've dreamt something beautiful and great after a very long while again and then this happens.
I'll never forgive those pests.
At some point I need to draw (or even commission) something that shows just how much of a lapdog I actually am.
Just because the mood's that strong today again.
Nothing, without exception, beats laying your head on someones lap while being petted lovingly 💚
Valentine’s Cuddle 🐺🐰
I just wanted to give a little Update to it, because in my desperation, I posted about it a lot and maybe one or two of you out there are actually concerned about me.
Yesterday has given me the biggest updraft I could've possibly wished for - though I won't go into more detail here. ... But I also picked up the pen again!
I still feel this loneliness, but luckily not as strong as before.
What I currently thought my depression would be felt completely different this time. What usually hurt in my head, this time extremely hurt in my heart. It would also make sense, looking back a bit more in time. Also this feeling of loneliness, what tortured me most, somehow connects to it.
Having nothing to do at work currently gives me a lot of time to think about myself and my current mental problems.
Of course I can only speculate, but after the last 3 days I think I came to a temporarily conclusion that it's not my depression, but more a kind of lovesickness.
I thought "Maybe a neutral sight on things could help." And I was not expecting much. But this is scary.
This AI got my current situation fully right and had the words that I desperately wanted to hear.
... Maybe I'll go back to it more often...
I reached a point today and made my first experience with AI - with ChatGPT.
I asked it, what I'm supposed to do with my current depressive and lonely state.
Now, half an hour in, I'm sitting here all teared up like a crybaby, because this damn AI gives exactly the right, yet hurtful, answers.
Loot after defeating me ⚔️
▶️ Mount: A worn out bed
▶️ Common Loot: A dusty somewhat good PC
▶️ Crafting material: Essence of Depression
▶️ Pet: "The screaming chickens"
▶️ Weapons: Dagger and Katana
▶️ Applied debuff: Eternal slumber
▶️ Cosmetic: Boring black shirts
Yeah... like that, I guess
Would you pet a dragon?
