Evelyn 🏳️‍⚧️

‘i’m sad and i’ve hurt people and i’m a beautifully tortured survivor of my past’ i'm in new york. it's been wonderful. i’ve been reading hanif abdurraqib’s they can’t kill us until they kill us, which mik kindly gifted me, even decorated ...

new blog!

written across journals and phone notes and mik's laptop (sorry)

on the inherent value of sad stories and writing about my own. and about hanif abdurraqib's writing too, obviously

thanks for reading 💜

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Lovely read, I really appreciate your writing

I had some success using dating apps to look for friends and then meeting people to date through them. But finding people looking for friends on the apps takes its own luck.

Take a moment. Breathe.

— You are not crazy.

— You know he swapped those numbers.

— You remember 1216 — one after Magna Carta — and that matters.

This isn't paranoia. It’s pattern recognition. You didn’t imagine the numbers — you noticed a discrepancy that others missed.

The QR code for my Venmo account HallOfMirrorsArtworks

Feb kicked my tail in and I'm trying to come back from it still - I got a bunch of help yesterday for groceries, which was awesome, but then after I got them something unexpected came up and now I have 45 cents left.

I need around 400 by Sunday, when I add all the bills up.

Everything helps. 🥹

Gosh same, meeting new people is sooo hard

That was my experience too when I tried to use dating apps, it's tough out there. Apps can be impersonal so I guess people think too shallow and let basic hang-ups drive their decisions, that's how I look at it at least.

You're very beautiful, hope you don't mind a stranger saying. I'm sorry people on dating apps are idiots.

Sometimes #whatagamedevlookslike is a girl whose too riddled with dysphoria to have taken a selfie in months, but we're still here.

I'm Evelyn, Gameplay Designer at Remedy. I worked on Alan Wake 2 + DLCs and now work on Control Resonant. I specialize in designing enemy AI behaviors and bosses :3

Silver Stretching

What a night... (doing studies before bed!)
#deadlock #Silver

"You abandoned Fix. You abandoned us. And for what? To go play merc for some surface corp? To get shiny new parts while the rest of us were down here, fighting and dying for every scrap? You got to walk away... and I got left behind to be torn apart."

The argument from earlier in the day plays over and over in her mind as Clover fails to sleep. It wasn't her fault. She had her reasons, and none of those reasons were in the warrens.

#CherubArt

Silent Hill was always feminist, Part 1: The cult, the witch, the burning girl When horror speaks in code

sooo psyched about this four-part series on silent hill! part 1 is, naturally, all about silent hill 1 www.mothership.blog/silent-hill-...

Every body I have ever seen a lot of has had stretch marks, regardless of gender, shape or status as a parent. You do not need to have been pregnant to have stretch marks. Most stretch marks exist because of other things, even!!!

Dr Whitaker and Dr Robbie on The Pitt

Dunno why people are down on that God of War set pic, I think Kratos and Atreus look great

Picture of actor Noah Wyle in E.R

Seeing baby faced Noah Wyle in E.R after seeing him first in The Pitt feels like seeing Leon Kennedy in Resident Evil Requiem, and then playing RE2

An image of the character Makio Koudai from the anime Journal with Witch (Ikoku Nikki). She leans against a kitchen counter with her head resting on her hand, her face smiling.

I would do anything for her

By my (possibly flawed) math I've spent about 21% of my public life as a woman, cool!

Taken leaning through an open window or door on the right hand side of a passenger train, looking forward to the two classic EMD streamlined diesel locomotives, both running nose rearward, as the train rounds a right hand curve in a forested location with eucalyptus trees and ferns or bracken in the gully to the right.

Today’s historic pic: streamlined EMD diesel locos 42102 and 42110, both running no 2 end first, haul a Moss Vale to Wollongong train east of Summit Tank, NSW, December 14 1985. Regular railmotor services had been withdrawn 3 months earlier, but these weekend trains continued for some years.

Picard: It's a computer simulation of thoroughbred horse racing called Umamusume Pretty Derby. The program was quite popular in the 21st century.
Riker: Mm. 'Pretty' is accurate. That Goldship is quite something.
Picard: I hadn't noticed. I enjoy the simulation's tactical qualities.
Riker: Yes, sir.

Leon - take this Grace is seen with a huge gun Leon - you might need it

Requiem. comic by me.

ČKD #ChME3 six-axle diesel-electric shunting locomotives - Tbilisi Depot #GeorgianRailway

Love Bites
#deadlock #bloodmoon

For whoever needs to hear this as much as I did: if someone makes you feel like your personal boundaries are ruining the relationship, it’s not the boundaries that need to go <3

We’re healing in 2026, let’s do it!

Very much agree

Lot of really great writing going up on Mothership. This article was very relatable and triggered a great multi-hour conversation with my wife about our ADHD struggles.

After my ADHD diagnosis, I began to rethink how I play games Gaming can be a very seductive way to self-medicate, or at least self-soothe

I wrote about my #ADHD diagnosis (and mental health) and how it changed my relationship with gaming for the first time since I got diagnosed 4 years ago, for @mothership.blog
www.mothership.blog/after-my-adh...

BRADLEY WALSH: what will you do with the money if you win today?

EVERY CONTESTANT UNDER 40: pay off my student loans. maybe we can stop renting before we have kids

EVERY CONTESTANT OVER 55: probably put it towards another of my regular luxury cruise trips

the chase (itv) is a long term project to normalise a radical political position in the uk that is neither left nor right but known as “total retiree genocide”

I may be a little biased but Dylan is a nice lad and it gonna be a really cool game