what would happen . how would people find out . how would they react . etc etc it weirds Me out but I can’t help but do it . and then i get stressed like it’s actually happening ??? thanks brain
i have to keep going because this is what they want but oh my god. im already thinking ahead to my friends and family and what’ll happen if something horrible happens either me or any of them . which is not new because these kinds of death “daydreams” are actually something i think about often
there is no therapist or counseling that can fix this
lost the motivation to do most things lately. i can’t help it. i feel so hopeless and scared all the time . like there’s no point in doing or planning for anything long term because i know i can’t leave and that things won’t get better soon enough
ive been praying more again ,, so that’s been a source of comfort at least
if WHITE. AMERICAN. CITIZENS. aren’t safe. what the fuck do i do
genuinely not knowing if im even gonna make it to the next academic year is so scary lol . like yeah hope i even make it to the summer . hope i dont get snatched off the streets because i wear a cloth on my head
like i KNOW a lot of things can be done platonically anyway . it’s just the concept of cute lovey dovey stuff that’s like … awwww ... now flatter me next
maybe this is a “toxic trait” (as the kids would say)but sometimes i wish someone would ask me out/to be valentines/confess just for the attention and I like the idea of it being cute even though i KNOW being put in that situation could get awkward
communicated this to said friends and they agree
cruelly queer
being unlabeled out of malice
^ irls Specifically. everyones Queer in different directions it’s so fucking funny . to quote angela giarratana - “sometimes i think i have a crush on all of you”
wanting to be swept off my feet except the most attraction ive had to a real person is wanting to kiss friends sometimes
okay that’s enough That’s enough
i cant stop doomscrolling and looking at ice things and it’s been makinf me so fucking anxious and i know i shouldn’t make that worse but icant
I wore the cute green dress I wore to the bfdi/ii meetup last year aaand had my hair all cute and braided
today i danced my ASS off
if it is between me and the worst person on earth she will still find a way to compare us
sometimes my mom actually likes me and god i wish that was the usual case
okay!!! i thought id calm down after occupying myself but i havent. except I can’t do it more because i have to sleep. except i can’t sleep because it’s keeping me up .
i dont know when a good time is
im literally going to throw up . all the good things i said about this piece of shit excuse for a stepdad
imnever trusting a man like that again in my entire fucking life
four years . hot damn
mirror mirror on the wall, who’s the fairest of them all … what ? me and my friends? love and joy and respect? oh my god
i dont plan to change it!
my pfp has been siffrin this entire account’s existence
how are people impossibly pretty
i cpfreaking cried dude
