mess_of_bees

Maybe some thyroid and kidney tests?

Lithium bloods Tuesday. Possibly others? Who knows, my GP is shit and never want to elaborate

I might be hearing things. It’s not voices, it’s sounds - music mostly. No one else is hearing it and I’m hoping it’s just really bad tinnitus.

2024 was a mess anyway. 85% spent in hypo/manic episode(s?).

Hoping for a more stable year this year but it’s not kicked off well.

#bipolar

Blood test booked in, anyway

Am I depressed, anxious, lithium toxic, or residual manic? Who knows.

Crashed.

I’m sleeping well, but my mood is high. I’m sleeping well but my hearing and taste are distorted - tastes aren’t what they should be, people’s voices don’t sound like they should, other sounds just sound different. I’m sleeping all night, I don’t understand.

Advice welcome #bipolar

I dreamt a GP tried to prescribe me methylphenidate, which was odd, because no one in their right mind should anyone be prescribing me, a person with manic swinging bipolar, a stimulant

Everything is awesome, everything is cool when you’re a mess of bees!!

02:24. I am awake.

Day something something on guanfacine. The apathy has passed I think, but I’m sick so 🤷🏻‍♀️

Day 2 on guanfacine: apathetic.

There’s any reason for that.

First guanfacine is in me. Here goes… in 4 to 8 weeks 😅

Toddlers!! He wants to watch a specific Blippi episode, but also not that specific Blippi episode????

Waiting for my first delivery of guanfacine. I’m supposed to start today, so I’m hoping it’ll be delivered today! So I’m in wait mode.

@greenleafgeek.bsky.social hi, I’m hoping to order some custom dice from you but I don’t know how possible the concept is. Could I talk to you about it before I got Buy? It’s that cheeky?

I’m in imposter syndrome, but today I can’t remember an argument husband and I had half an hour ago. I don’t know if I need to apologise or if I need to be apologised to. Or both. Or even if there was an argument.

If I can’t remember, how am I supposed to explain myself? Stupid brain, stupid ADHD.

Husband and I went to a park today. Fortunately he knew where we left the car because it is BEYOND me.

But I’m having a particularly bad ADHD week to make up for the good sleep. Thanks brain 😑

My sleep has felt a little more under control the last two nights. I even felt a little tired today!

Honestly I just want to cry 🙃

Finally slept more than five hours last night and hoping for EVEN MORE tonight. Fuck bipolar.

Restless, not sleeping, clonazepam tonight.

I have music I want to listen to, but said music can make me bouncy. Too much bouncy leads to overwhelm and that leads to mania. So frustrating. Bipolar.

Partner cleaned the house today. I did nothing, and I feel so so so bad. Task paralysis is real.

And worse also since the ADHD got diagnosed early this year. Or maybe I’m just noticing more.

I swear the ADHD has got worse since the bipolar got stabilised. Maybe it was just unmasked.

Executive function is alive and well… /s

I can’t format sentences, can’t pay attention long enough.

Bring on titration!

This PIP form is awful. I’m not even going to get it am I.