Kaija Rayne 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🇨🇦 Randomly active

As with so much in life. The reality isn't anywhere near the sales pitch or the dream.

I actually believed the lie when my debut was published.

Who boy. Did I learn better.

Unfortunately, writing is about the only thing I can still *do* with my disabilities.

A minuscule percentage of authors make ridiculous amounts of money (& use it for evil things, *coughs* Rowling *coughs*.)

Generally, authors don't make even 10k a year. Which is why you’ll hear a lot of us referring to it as an expensive hobby.

Why do you think I'm begging for grocery money?

Sold the lie damned well, too.

A well known, white, presumed male author *might* make a dollar on one of those big, hardcover, doorstopper books depending on his contract.

You make *much less* if you’re anything but white, presumed male, sane, neurotypical, insert marginalization.

Jim Crow in the Asylum | Emory Center for Digital Scholarship - Manifold Scholarship <h3>Untangling the relationship between race and psychiatry in the American South</h3> There is a complicated history of racism and psychiatric healthcare in the Deep South states of Georgia, Alabama...

I don’t know whether you know this but my book is Open Access and you can read it for free on your kindle via Amazon (where it is the number one health policy download!). Also totally open access with extra resources online at jimcrowintheasylum.com

For real. Actual silver. Allergic to water too. (Can drink it, can't have it on my skin for long.)

I'm in 1% on illnesses & disorders (just not $... I would've preferred the $ 😅.)

I'm just an unidentified cryptid. 🤣

It just annoys me that someone must have known from mouth x-rays & never told me.

Humans aren't born w/wisdom teeth. The WT tooth buds don't start to form until we're roughly 7 or 8, then they grow with us.

Some people genetically don't have them at all. Some people, like me 🤣, are 'blessed' with double.

I keep telling people I'm a cryptid. I'm allergic to silver (not nickel).

The AI big brother creeps me out too. And I'm certain other companies are doing it too.

Said it before, will again, someone develops stuff to replace all these companies with full transparency, banned AI, amd old fashioned age verification? They'd have *so many* customers.

what you labelled it. Moral panic pearl clutching. I grew up during a period of that and have fought my entire life for queer rights so *we wouldn't have to do this* again.

AGAIN. We've lived through this twice already. Fucking enough.

Goddess forbid parents actually talk to their kids.

Thanks, love ❤️.

Just the long healing period left.

And seriously. If I didn’t mod servers on Discord (moving servers is hell)
and didn’t have some nostalgia from it, and weren’t stressed the fuck out, I'd have left in the first wave.

This bullshit 'we must protect the children' is exactly

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As much as I utterly LOATHE having to ask. The grant (surprisingly) didn't cover everything for my maxillofacial surgery this week and ... now we don't have grocery/food money.

If you've got anything to spare I really need a bit of help right now.

ko-fi.com/A630KKM
www.paypal.me/KaelanRhy

Pegasus striking his hoof on the ground of Mount Helicon and creating the Hippocrene

BL Royal MS 6 E IX; Convenevole da Prato, Carmina regia; c. 1335 CE; Italy (Tuscany); f.28v
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As much as I utterly LOATHE having to ask. The grant (surprisingly) didn't cover everything for my maxillofacial surgery this week and ... now we don't have grocery/food money.

If you've got anything to spare I really need a bit of help right now.

ko-fi.com/A630KKM
www.paypal.me/KaelanRhy

I'm sticking with Discord since they backed off on the age bullshit.

At least until they try to strong arm me into something else. I'll be building backup servers to switch to in the interim as soon as I feel a bit better.

I'm so sick of these companies demanding things they have no right to.

and now. I've exhausted my social battery and I'm running away again. I hope everyone is well and taking better care of themselves than I have been.

I promise to rest now. I just *couldn't* with that appeal hanging over my head.

Oh. For contacting me whilst I'm away. Email is always good.

for more proof.

Welp. That thing was bigger than both my master theses put together sooo.

Ppl look at me funny when I say writing a dissertation would be easy for me.

Except it really would.

Y'know? I really wish I could go back to school for my Ph.D.s (I'd do a double since all my others are.)

Sliding that massive appeal into the envelope felt like *finally* putting down a huge rucksack full of stones.

(I... do kinda pity whoever pulls the case... someone asked a contrary, desperate, virgo who eats dissertations and research papers for breakie, lunch, and dinner (according to my kids)

tiny amounts of dignity disabled people have left.

Y'know? I'd rather 10k people get disability aid they don't actually need than to have one person have to go through everything I have for this.

It's fucking horrific.

Note that UBI would remove this necessity and WHY AREN'T WE DOING THAT YET?

not diagnosed with until I was 41. (It's genetic. Like Autism. You either have it or you don't.)

So... there's the update. I'm alive. Surgery went well. Appeal is finally mailed off and I hope to hell it works this time.

I swear they *design* disability support access applications to strip what

out by the dental school I go to. AND I still have two wisdom teeth. That's 8 wisdom teeth in a small jaw. No wonder my teeth are fucky. (It's why you'll rarely see me actually smile with teeth.)

Guess what can cause Hyperdontia(extra teeth)? Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome.

Which I was born with but

opinion on Stranger Things when we've finished it.

I also didn't know I had 4 extra wisdom teeth. I'm 49 and things I just... *wasn't told* about the body I freaking live in is a MASSIVE amount.

I had 4 wisdoms pulled when I was 24 (badly... it's what causes my panic attacks) and two more taken

PEM (post exertional malaise) reaction. Which I should've expected but damnit... I miss when my body didn't do this shit to me.

So I'm stuck in bed for however long it takes to feel better. (Or on the couch watching shows with youngest. We're still watching Stranger Things.

Um. I'll get into my

I worked on that thing for two days when I should've been resting because I'd just had surgery. It was hell to be working on it. And I'm still afraid it won't be enough.

Despite it going well it was still a pretty invasive maxillofacial surgery. I'm still in pain and have run myself right into a

actually have a panic attack. Thanks to these wonderful (and frankly hot as fuck) surgeons.

What? Having cute surgeons is a bonus in my book. Anything to distract my brain from freaking out.

I couldn't get the appeal out before the surgery so have been pushing myself on that to finish it.

Man...

Tooth is out. I got sooooo lucky that they assigned me basically the super stars of the senior oral surgeon program because that 'possibly complicated' surgery went as smooth as butter.

Y'know... except for me and the constant imminent panic attack. Which they also handled very well. I did NOT

Goddess YES.

Dorian Week 202

🐍 ✨ #DorianWeek2026 is here!!

Thank you everyone who participated in #DorianWeek last year! Super excited to see what everyone will be doing with the prompts this time around 💕

Shadowheart statue 👑
#BaldursGate3 #BG3

My art, digital. Realism horse armour and inked horse skull

Horse armour study - 2026

a man in a black shirt is making a funny face with his finger . ALT: a man in a black shirt is making a funny face with his finger .

Artist me fighting the inner thoughts of ‘ It looks good but it doesn’t make sense but it looks good but it doesn’t make sense’

Okay I kept at it and I kinda think I like it??
Solas Study, he's so... ough 🥺😭😫
#ChenLdArt
#Solas #DragonageFanart