Drive 3+ hours to get to the nearest avian vet Ughh Im so eager to finish my queue so we can move to a better area closer to a good vet. My queue is the main reason we're still here ;w; I need to work harder, for my birbs!

Milo has been showing signs of being ill, nothing too serious just mildly worrying. I did set up a vet appointment but earliest they can see him is wed & they informed me they dont actually do any tests for birds. Its the only vet here that will see birds 🥲 no actual avian vets here..

Id have to-

So Ko-Fi has confirmed they're not bringing back the search/marketplace feature. All discovery has to be done on your own, which super sucks.

For any fans of Ko-Fi creators, now more than ever, word of mouth would really help! It's free to do and can make a big difference for those creators.

When I went off them last year or so it felt like I had a flu & food poisoning at the same time it was SO awful 😖 my psychiatrist has no issue prescribing them thankfully, I just didn't realize I had no refills last min & ofc now its the weekend(office is closed) 😅

About to run out of my sertraline and have to wait til Monday to call to get a quick refill 😅 I know its not ideal but Im literally breaking the pills in half to last me the weekend.. better than being without cos I got really sick last time I went off it a few days. 🤞

Bf: sends me screenshot of shiny ditto he caught in pkmn go

Me: Melted new

Bf: toothpaste

Me: lol name it colgate

Bf: Something nicer. I read it in Spanish and that's slang for "hang yourself"

Me: oh god

Learning new things everyday lmao

I do like rain on a car which I've listened to before. I love how chill and nice the comments always are in the sleepy sounds/music videos too. Im gonna try different ones to see if I can find one to stick with.

I try those ad-free sleep music/sound videos on YouTube but nothing has been quite right. There's a Playlist I found on Spotify that became my go-to sleep music but I canceled my premium a bit ago & haven't been able to use it since ads are too disruptive.

Anyway I've developed insomnia yay 😮‍💨

I was trying to remember yesterday but realized I was thinking of like 2 days ago 🥴 my sense of time is atrocious right now & I think stress makes it worse. Also running on 3hrs of sleep so that prob doesn't help lol

I would try adhd meds but I'm too afraid of side effects right now.

Working on suits during the day, art at night. I wish I didn't have to sleep so I could get more done lol

Car. Really stuck between a rock & a hard place rn ;w;

Its not emergency level but def urgent. I have to make money to reclaim my financial responsibility so my bf can save again and get a car. Then I can have reliable transportation for a job.. being stuck feels paralyzing in a way I hate it.

Really struggling since I dont know what I can do to make money now. I dont have full free use of my car since my bf needs it to get to work. And now because Im not adding suits/making money he has taken over my share of living costs. Which has now made it impossible for him to save up for a new-

The point costs. Maybe ranks instead? Or level up? I think making it like a sorta game would be fun. Spinning reward wheels and unlocking perks may be better than saving points til the end.. hmm

I'll brainstorm while I work on some house chores. If anyone wants to give input I'd love to hear!

Its been difficult to draw since I'm still feeling like a sad blobfish but I would like to try & make daily sketches again. Maybe daily adopt concepts.

I also might rework the reward system since it doesn't seem to be of interest enough to commission/buy art and I do worry ppl will be deterred by-

Really need to make some money so Im okay for taxes & so my bf isn't paying for everything. Im sorta a mess atm between everything. Im going to try and design a bunch of adopts but they havent sold well for years so I am a little anxious I'm just wasting time. But its the best thing to try atm.

Finally logged back in here after two months. I didn't mean to be away so long but I was auto-logged-out and never had the spoons to remember my password.

Im all sad-brained since a pet just passed away yesterday. Its made me kind spaced out. Pet deaths always hit hard for me ;w;

Right now tho I-

To getting a retail job. PLUS drawing helps fuel or boost my creative energy which fursuit work then benefits from. Whereas retail will break my squishy very-out-of-shape body and make everything else difficult 😅

Decent amount of extra points to help you get bigger stuff.

I will officially announce comms open & link stuff later I just want to throw it out there for now!

After crimmis I will start accepting and working on art comms. Suit queue will still be the priority, art comms is a better alternative-

Its open & active. You earn 1 reward point for every $3 you spend. There's a few ways to earn bonus points, too! I also have most rewards up with their point cost. Including fursuits in case a crazy person wants a million pieces of art lol

Though with the bonus point stuff you could def get a-

My internal clock packed up and left. Its given up lol

Anyway. I'll be posting again soon. I spent the past week updating my carrd cos I need moneys and I want to open art commissions.

THERES A REWARD STSTEM. I am finally gonna give it a try! My brain is tired from all the setting up of it but-

I've been very uber mega absent. Time flies especially when you got sleepy disorders 😭👍

Some days I slept 12hrs then 5 then 10 then 3.. and the times I go to bed/get up are widly different each day. Its only been recently, prob cos of the darker days messing up my internal clock.

Actually I think-

(I lived in Florida at one point when I was a kid & been to Texas one summer so I actually have seen a variety of wild lizards lol)

Introduce yourself with five animals you have seen in the wild:

Lizard
Lizard
Lizard
Lizard
Lizard

Aside from being furry & finding fursuits really fun, it's the only thing I'm good at & know how to do tbh 😅 I don't have any other skills or talents. If I'm not making fursuits & art the only job option for me is retail.

Had a dream where my bird was chewing aggressively on my pinkie toe and it was hurting BAD.

Wake up to find its REAL. Milo likes chewing on socks and unfortunately never understood that my feet are in there. So he sometimes bites & chews like he would a toy.. ouch lol

I haven't tried tailors chalk yet but I think next time I have an opportunity to I'll grab some and try it out!

Over a decade of sewing and I still struggle with getting good crisp markings on dark fabric. I tend to use silver sharpie but I'd like something better. I've tried multiple different fabric pencils & pens but they never work. Just had my last good silver sharpie leak all over me 😩

With cold season upon us ppl will be more interested in cozy sockpaws! I will need another form of income soon to keep up with things tho my partner has been covering more to help.

I'm designing them with the intention of being indoor/home cozy socks vs costume parts. So they won't be too bulky.

Got a goal for work today & if I complete it early enough im gonna allow myself a little bit of time to work on an upgraded minky sockpaw pattern. My first one got zero interest which totes made me sad. They're so cozy. I want to improve it a bit and maybe make a version with fur.

The hope is that-

Past couple days I've been hit pretty hard with a strong "I miss drawing" feeling but I also don't want to get into it so it doesn't distract me from suitwork. Drawing lots will be my reward later once suits are done 😭🙏

I'm also becoming fully nocturnal again, fighting it is so difficult rn lol