I know this pattern, it's called bipolar. You need to disperse lithium carbonate into the atmosphere and give the weather some support while it levels out. It's gonna be okay, clouds.
as a bipolar person, daylight savings sucks ass. wdym my carefully crafted sleep schedule gets royally fucked because of some bullshit from WWI 😡
One of the many unfortunate things about #bipolar is thinking your logic is good until some time later you realize "ahh nope I was not well during that time, opps". Awkward. And then you are left wondering what other things in your life you had wacky that others witnessed.
Oh, wow. Heartbreaking to hear about Robert Carradine and the end of his struggle with bipolar disorder. He was a gifted performer and by all accounts a really good dude. Rest in power, man.
We can’t always prevent the worst, but we can decide who we are when it happens. #tumblerridge
My thoughts are with those affected by the school shooting in BC. As a parent with school age kids, this exact thing is my greatest fear. #BC #TumblerRidge
I am not a Kayne West (Ye) fan but this quote in an article.. “The scariest thing about this ( #bipolar ) disorder is how persuasive it is when it tells you: You don’t need help. It makes you blind, but convinced you have insight. You feel powerful, certain, and unstoppable.” Sums up mania well.
Thanks for your encouragement.
That is awful your husband is unwell and it is a great sign you are handling better than you would have before. Sometimes I feel strong and over it, but I still have times where I am a mess. Mourning what I feel I lost, in shock of what happened still. Processing sure comes in waves.
I have old trauma that I felt like I have a decent handle on. I thought yeah, finally feeling free. But then stuff happened nearly a year ago, that just hits so hard at times. Feels unfair I have to go through healing from more.
When people stop talking about their trauma, people assume they have gotten over it. But the truth is people get tired of the story, or they find it too hard to listen too. So trauma survivors go silent to prevent people from abandoning them. It's too heavy. The survivor silently holds the pain.
One of the most frustrating things about #trauma is that healing is non linear. Just when you think "I've gotten past this", the pain is back and more processing must happen. I don't think trauma ever fully leaves us, but hopefully we will grow to a point where it no longer controls us.
I have such perfect timing at work where I tend to walk by during the weirdest moments of a conversation my coworkers are having. Today I overheard "you can stick your tongue in it for a little adventure!" I believe she was talking about food, I hope. #funny #awkward
I was enjoying what felt like early hypomania.. now I feel the start of a shift back the other way. To be honest, I am feeling somewhat scared this time. I just never know how bad it will get, last week was awful. #bipolar
Tossed and turned to go to sleep as I was wired. Finally about 1 am, I went to sleep. Been up since 5 am, feeling totally rested and unable to sleep more. Huge change from my usual 8-10 hrs. It's yet another sign. If you know, you know. #bipolar
Exactly, especially when just coming out of a painful low. It feels good though you know it isn't. A part of you doesn't care it isn't.
The problem with hypomania is that it sounds like the opposite of a problem.
Bipolar sure is hard on our wallets. All those purchases did feel just fine and great.
I relate, it is past my bedtime. Except right now I am also having the nighttime brain shown here during the day.
Ahh. Things changing. Elevated mood. Talking rate increased. Feeling energized. Productive. Getting to bed later, waking up at the same time feeling fine. Probably exactly what I think it is. #bipolar
I thought "yeah these meds/ dose are doing a great job, I think I can function well like this". I felt really good, finally. Then 3 weeks in to have the low mood hit again.. this is fucking torture. Where basic tasks are like climbing mountains. Beyond frustrated. #bipolar #mentalhealth
Heard this on the movie "Die My Love". Out of the entire soundtrack, this one struck me the most.
Just finished watching "Die My Love", a newer movie with Robert Pattinson and Jennifer Laurence. It is an artistic movie showing mental illness. Quite a lot of unexpected things happen. Glad I watched. Side note: a lot of nudity in the movie. #mentalhealth
In a few weeks it will be a year since I realized something was wrong with me. I was doing weird things (and for longer than I realized). I did not yet know I'm #bipolar. Where did that year go? I'm expecting the anniversary to be tough on me, as it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through.
Ugh. Nothing like spending 1.5 hours installing a stair gate only to find out it is defective as it doesn't close at the top/ bottom at the same time even with adjustments. Another 30 mins taking it all apart and packing it back up to ship back. I am struggling to control my irratablity. #bipolar
Yesterday at work my manager showed me an important letter from HR I asked for, but I was wearing gloves covered in industrial paint and thinner. She set it face down on top of a filing cabinet near me. I forgot about it for two full shifts. I realized when I got home today. Ugh. I blame my #ADHD.
I have been thinking lately about how many times toxic people told me that they were awful people. And in my usual fashion I denied it and tried to bring up their self esteem. Turns out they had yet to show me the real them. When the mask slipped it was shocking. I keep missing big red flags.
"Teach people how to treat you." I have to remind myself that people test what they can get away with. If I allow it, bad treatment will continue. Getting comfortable with sticking up for my #boundaries is tough. But the alternative is worse for my peace. Changing myself little by little.
I read something today about how abuse is a choice and they do it because they enjoy the control. With all the "excuses" they give, the reality is they know full well they are harming people. It is really insidious and sinister in nature. Knowing that they choose to harm is an emotional realization.
In total it took 8hs to fully cook. And weirdly didn't have any dry meat.. considering we partially carved it before realizing it was still pink, not bad.
