Crashing after a hard day, I found myself in a fantasy that I simultaneously found quiet comfort in her presence, begged her to hurt me, and begged her not to hurt me - like Neapolitan ice cream, the three flavors simultaneous and unmixed. 🍨🔪 How fucking lucky & cool to 🥄 the reality hours later
Damn I am in a moment of semi-mysterious vulnerability healing/growth that appears to be marked by bursting into deep tears every time I have sex... my emotions are having an orgasm 💦
I have wanted to do Rolfing for decades and am finally investing in this gift to my body. It's so fucking special to be read and held this way. Even though our sessions are wordless I am trying to learn from it how to hold my body with similar care when I'm alone.
all my tissues saying, "Hmm, never thought about it... oh! I really like that idea! You're right, holy shit, yes!" 🦴🗯️
It makes me so calm that my thinking brain falls asleep while my body keeps rapturously receiving its lesson. Then I wake up and walk around my newly expanded insides
In the land of body: I have started doing Rolfing which is gonna change my life. It feels like eavesdropping thru the wall on my body's therapy sessions - or operatic dialogue in another language.
I truly have no idea what this man's hands are saying to my heel/elbow/ribs, but I can hear
I'm so sorry 🖤
I'm cracking up bc earlier I joked, "oh you had three glasses of wine, how shall I take advantage of you" and the answer seems to be "make suggestions in your google doc which you accept all of" 😈
I love love, and I love helping my babe edit their anthology chapter under impending deadline while slightly tipsy and on a train on the other side of the world 💕
This discussion loops around when ppl complain of being plagiarized when others sip from the same fount of lovingly repeated tropes
imho omega-3 supplements, eating like an athlete in injury recovery (so much protein and fiber) and gentle cardio every day has made a huge difference in my post-COVID and post-concussion recoveries
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I know u ended up officiating that wedding
I've seen it three times now and I think it's solid, got narrative structure, the right amount of self-caricature, carefully not misogynistic. A better IP blockbuster than the Barbie movie
cuz being a cloud is IN 🌧️
Life! Family, tooth pain, plumbing disasters. I'm close to the edge, in a gentle sustained way. Like glamping near the cliff I have mapped well in the last years. 🏕️ Love being in therapy again. I wanna dish about the therapist I did NOT keep, whose polycule I learned way too much about in 2 sessions
Sizzling, surreal, to be charged w so much imminent radical change not at all yet set in motion. To not WANT the seismic changes, but need them. To not know what the final picture will look like, OR even know if I CAN solve it successfully. But all this roil does get me closer. ⚡️🌊
One of those games where u need to slide the puzzle pieces around to cohere an image. Thank u poptoptoys.com for my visual metaphor
Right now my life feels intensely like one of these 🧩🖼️. I'm mentally assembling it 24/7 and failing and starting over which makes it hard to focus on other stuff like Emails. Or sometimes Emails and Teaching and Dishes are blessed temporary relief!
Well, wait. Sick gift, the fight finds you. 💣
It's perfect, just needs a realistic cow
What a privilege it is to finally be able to read my own book.
I really hope I can translate this into actionable steps-- possibly thru my concurrent journey of handstand technique upgrades which have the potential to unlock oceans-deep resources of nuanced ab engagement 🤞
Like. It's hard to state how much this is like suddenly getting to read a lengthy dry Wikipedia article about ur childhood abuser or the shadowy demon from ur chronic nightmares. Lights on. Oh it had a name this whole time. (And: why didn't any fucking doctor ever tell me 🙃🔪)
W/ a lot of slow focused work I am finally getting a good grade in interoception 🧑🎓🫁 & today I suddenly could translate the decades-long sensation of my Tiac Knee Pain-- the mysterious, powerful, consistent companion of my entire adulthood-- into patellar instability. OK! Damn!
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thank u for hosting this little symposium, I personally agree w this lens
this was a helpful read for me, ty!
Haha yes I was literally thinking about the Canadian Shack challenge with this example! Or "Five Things That Aren't True" and how that turned into contemporary "5 + 1." The prose styles of this era had more crossover with pro sff than romance, despite the sexual/romance content, imo.
which as you note 100% is in a feedback loop with pro romance, both in trope-forward marketing techniques and general aspects of literary craft. Fic used to be SO much more stylistically diverse before it was so centrally located! This is bittersweet to me
Yes, completely! And yes haha I was around for the transition from mailing lists and individually hosted websites to LJ so I have a long perspective. Something I've been very interested in too is what I see as a trans-fandom flattening of prose styles/plot structures which I call "AO3 house style"
Thank you babe 🥺💖
oof I hope you can get to the dentist in a way that works out for past present and future R... not to be the ghost of toothache future but I'm having major 🦷🔧💸 done today myself
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