Until the memory recall, I was unable to organize my intellectual thoughts, and now it seems I can just flush them out so easily. I have been doing things very specific with my recovery to produce this outcome. I may write about it.
My personality and online presentation have gone under some major evolution in the past year. It is because of therapy and trauma recovery that I am able to "recover" parts of myself. A recent memory recall in Hawaii has allowed me to "be more myself." I find this process amazing and understated.
What Do We Owe the Insufferable?
When mental illness exhausts our emotional capacities
www.psychiatrymargins.com/p/what-do-we...
Important update. Google’s YouTube has not only erased thousands of videos of human rights violations in Palestine, it has now blocked livestreaming from Al Jazeera within the country. If you have not already divested from the platform, now is the time to do so.
Have you ever heard of someone having an adverse effect to nature? 🤔 When I look at these pictures of sunsets from Hawaii all the red colors just make my head burn and numb and I remember feeling like I was in Hell bc the sky was on fire.
Sweden announced that they will accept travel as a prescriptive remedy for mental health. I have advocated for this for years. Traveling to scenic places resets your biochemistry, and traveling to slums and cities resets your attitude and outlook.
I like to think I am an intentional field explorer of mental health treatments with global perspectives instead of a mentally ill person who cant work that just takes frivolous vacations.
I experienced this numbness, followed by a high and a two day episode of psychosis with my paranoia heightened. The end result though was that I remembered my sexual abuse as a child in an orderly sequence instead of an array of disjointed memories.
I spent the past 2 weeks in Hawaii. Much of my life is about experimenting with new ways to better my mental health since I have the time and money.
On this trip I discovered that after looking at Hawaiian sunsets 5 days in a row you can experience a numbness/high that alters your memories.
Happy New year!!
Happy New Year! New Year New Me! Thankful for this life i live. It was never easy but perseverance will win out in the end
I find it funny that astrologers and psychics always advise their customers not to get too many readings done because the results cant be reproduced due to passing moments of intuitive power, when the entire premise of scientific validity is the complete opposite
Lisa Wallace was such a funny, inspirational, admirable woman. I know she had struggles but she was so resilient. I always admire older women who are so passionate about their ideas. We were kindred. I am utterly very sad about her passing. I only wish she knew how valued she was.
I love this drawing!!
Baker & Taylor, one of the largest distributors for print library books in America, is closing down.
Hahaha!!! Yes I can only tolerate cute things on halloween honestly
I bounce back after like a day of instability!!
I tried to have fun last night. I bought some film with cute little ghosts on it from my film shop. It was fun even if moving through a huge crowd cause me to shake and stun the whole night!!
This has been happening for 10 to 15 years for different memories, and i thought it was so normal and was simultaneously so ashamed I never brought it up to anyone. Traveling to countries where violence is the norm is more comforting to me. Having pure fun is not.
I went out for the holiday and it was so fun but then I suffered the whole night!! Didn't sleep until 9am
Malala writes how weed brought back memories of getting shot. I understand. Last night I did a simple thing by going to the famous NYC Halloween parade. I had a lot of fun. But then I couldn't sleep until 9am. I had flashbacks of tear gassed protests, being drunk, drugged, and alone in the city.
Most of my delusions and hallucinations ive learned to bear the pain and triggers without conscious thought. But yeah I end up avoiding Halloween parties and events a lot lol
I hate Halloween. Not only does it remind me of my hallucinations or put me on a constant cortisol high, the decorations are made with dirty plastic and everything feels gross to the toych! Both my deep and superficial sides are not happy with this holiday.
Yes there are people out there who will lift you up! Please also check out my friend Cecilia McGough on Instagram and her friends Kody Green (schizophrenichippie) and Vesper Moore (vesper_j_moore). We will have a podcast out eventually too
Oh man I get that too. At least we are not alone. Sometimes when I do any bit of human connection with people that mutually care for each other they subside and I hear more positive messages. Basically I try to surround myself with only good so the Voices absorb that
It is possible to live a full life! Oh I am so curious about how it is like to live with the condition in India. I actually travel a lot and have done a little research in different countries about mental health
Me as a relaxed person who has schizoaffective disorder! With my sun hat and film camera in a city garden. Im so healthy!
This week I walked 21 miles!
I haven't had psychosis since I came back from my vacation in Mexico at the beginning of September. This is longest streak that I can remember of relaxed, sustained health. Maybe I should write a book and get a podcast.... oh wait! I did and co-host one! Just not at this moment lol. Need an agent...
