Foxy Fig's on a Hiatus

thanks for 3k btw! btw if you put your age in your bio (this goes for SW's too) I might even follow you back ☺️. maybe!! you can try it and find out how about that

also my new gyno told me I have a beautiful cervix LMAO I was like thanks? idk what that means but ok. I guess it's healthy looking is what I took away from that. but yeah she seems nice and super respectful which was great. hopefully can get all this sorted out B4 we're going on month 2 or worse

and even after a like over a year of being on T I don't have many changes other than some mild increased body hair and had some initial bottom growth, maybe some chest flattening but they've always been saggy so it's hard to tell. definitely gonna bring it up to Endo at the end of March

I hope we get some answers! if not I might just switch to the hormonal IUD from the copper one to see if it all least
stops the month + long menses bc the testosterone isn't affecting that yet unfortunately.

update I went to a new gyno today and she was very cool and respectful and nice. did a pap and got some routine tests done even though I've been sexually inactive for almost a year now (which is fine by me, basically asexual ATP).

MY BUSSY IS SO TIRED OF WEARING PERIOD PANTIES ALL THE TIME

*amount of time

my health goals are currently: • figure out how to make my body stop bleeding all the time & why my ankles are getting swollen
• finally get these two damn teeth pulled and an actual dentist that can evaluate the rest
• lose the weight & save up enough for Top surgery/time off for recovery

the one good thing health wise is I started getting some free frozen meals and they're helping me very slowly manage my weight so hopefully some day I can get into an "acceptable BMI" range (BMI is bullshit btw) for my insurance to potentially cover Top surgery.

anyways in health news I have had my period for over a month and swelling in my ankles for about the same amount amor time TBH and I'm finally getting my shit together and going to my PCP about it on Wed. but I'm still not hopeful TBH bc all this healthcare shit is kicking my ass.

mostly just ranting bc I'm tired of randos following me when I don't have the energy to monitor this page anymore 😭

every day I'm just a little bit closer to deleting all my social media especially my SW ones bc I don't forsee coming out of hiatus anytime soon 🤷🏻

is there srsly still no way to have a private/locked profile on this platform??? or am I missing something

wanna punch this guy in the head. for some reason he can't just sleep in his own fucking room. he's gotta be all sprawled out in the living room couch like he doesn't have his own fucking bed!!! omfg I'm gonna have to sit at the damn dining room table all damn day

& her mom is constantly asking me stuff I don't wanna talk abt.

I don't mind answering her questions about the plan of care or medical appointments, but do not ask me personal questions please it's annoying

OMG I am so glad it's the final day of dealing w/ my client's out of town family. they are SO ANNOYING. the teen girl doesn't know how to read the cat's body language & keeps bothering him. 1 more hour & then I'm done w/ them for hopefully a LOOOONG time. wish time was going faster tbh

honestly GOOD. all that tells me is that he's probably afraid of me like the insecure piece of shit he is. I hope I put the fear of Glob into his ass bc I hate his guts. hope everything he eats from now til his end gives him the runs

he's part of the reason I lost my old job as far as I'm concerned

LMFAO I love that this is the second time I've seen my ex coworker around this bus stop and this time he's on a bike and literally swerved into the oncoming lane of traffic & crossed the road to the sidewalk to avoid me. & I know he's got PTSD related to car crashes so that says something.

I'm starting to get PTSD from this doorbell I stg. probably just from him being a fucking asshole, but I hate the noises of them so much. it's obnoxious

I just don't understand why this weirdo WHO LIVES HERE and knows they don't typically lock the door has the bright idea to ring the doorbell multiple times, just bc his arms are full of groceries. ring it once or put something down on the chair outside for one second. it's really not that hard!! 😩😫

maybe I'll set a timer or alarm for Thursday about 2 hours before my shift so I can call out without getting written up as a little treat 🫣

I really need to go to bed I am way past my bedtime & I definitely can't afford to call out tomorrow in good conscience. I'm supposed to help them with a zoom call for stuff & I know for a fact she's not tech savvy enough to get that working on her own

either way, seeking reconnecting w/ my therapist as soon as humanely possible. wish me luck, as I've been playing phone tag with her forever now
🤞🏻🍀🙏🏻

but I feel like regardless there's a lot of shit I gotta work on B4 I can get past this mental block or whatever it is

or maybe this is just a new season of my life and it's just okay for it to be different regardless of the circumstances. IDK I guess we'll see

not looking for advice or anything like that).

maybe it's the depression things getting more intense, maybe recently it's the fact that I've fallen off my HRT schedule for the past few months, maybe it's some PTSD shit from being houseless and the instability of all that. maybe it's all the above

I have a lot of respect for those that can just do it as a job & work through that, for me I was mostly just filming when horny & didn't set up specific times for that. maybe that wasn't smart & I should have just treated it more like a job (comments are off btw bc this is just me venting...

I feel like this is a huge change from how I used to be. I went from basically hypersexual to asexual in a very short time period. even by myself I just don't have a sex drive like I used to

& I know asexual workers exist & have to work regardless bc they gotta support themselves, but I just cannot

I hate to say it but I had to let my tryst profile expire bc I have zero drive to do SW still and I don't forsee that changing sadly. I'm glad I found a way to support myself without it, but I do miss the creative parts of it and being in touch with my sexuality more

this last one I really wanna keep the same savoriness, but maybe like half/one fourth less as spicy. I know I can handle this spice level now but I kinda wanna be able to bring some over to my client's house and share it without putting her in a fiery lava mouth time lol.

she does not do spicy much

this latest batch was a lot more spicy and savory than the first one I made B4 that. on batch 3 I'm gonna at least try to take some notes so I can try to keep track of what I do and do not like about it so I can really nail down my fave techniques and make it my own 😁💜