Sam>⁠.⁠<

My attachment style is too fucked up to like someone without torturing myself~

Met a woman so gorgeous today that I forgot my year, my internship, and her entire face - not bi, just system error: beauty.exe crashed.

Can't let Anger and hate turn me into someone I'm not...

When you develop a minor crush and suddenly you are scared of double texting and wait atleast 5 mins to text him back~

I don't know why I was so obsessed with leaving the door open without someone I don't want back in my life....

Downloaded Tellonym again just because... The bots are getting more and more creative

Birds of a feather stick together... In that case, I'm happy that I'm associated with you and not them..

I wish I was actually a good person instead of a whiner

The thing about me is I will leave. I always do. So it's kinda dumb to assume that I won't.

I don't know if I like what I see or wanna punch a hole in the mirror...

Your absence is kinder than your presence ever was..

I really like talking to you. Your voice has a strange calmness and maturity that I just can't get enough of..

How did I ever convince myself that I love someone who can't even fathom to listen to me talk about my reality and that I can build a life with him?

Sometimes I wonder what kinda psychological effect will hating my father have on me... Because I blame him for not being there. But I'm thankful he's away and I feel suffocated when he's around. I can't forgive him but I miss having a father.

Every time I talk to this guy, I wonder he's such a warm presence...

At times when something happens, I start to wonder what you would have said if you were here. No matter how many complaints I have from you. No matter how incompatible I believe we are. You were my partner for more than a year, man. You mean a lot. I hope you knew that.

Why do I always become the object of pity? Am I too needy? Do I give so much that it becomes obvious that I desparately need love and approval?

But it was still enough to disintegrate me...

You're like a gigantic iceberg that I only ever touched the tip of...

Need someone to remind me that the world doesn't revolve around me and it's ok~

Eating ice-cream because asking someone's son why he doesn't love me anymore is wrong~

I know you are tired of my nonsense but what can i do? I'm tired of my nonsense too!!

You make me want to brew you in all my poetry~

Cause f*ck it, I was in love

Time is passing so fast that I no longer have any concept of it. Life doesn't feel real anymore...

I cut hair short to get rid of the memories but then I remembered you like short hair and it all felt useless...

No revenge... Because you're going through a hard time too

The motherly instinct to salvage things has never led me to a good place

Some things are better off being thoughts instead of actions

And people are tired of my tantrums and I know... You would have been too. But I can't help but daydream what if you were here and you understood me. A version that never existed and maybe never will...