hel

FUCK I LOVE PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN THAT WAS FUN

this movie makes me too comfy i cant

i said i would self care tf out of myself, and where i enjoyed today, i did end up working on things

getting meds monday/tuesday hopefully 🥹

im so happy

doctor confirmed that the problems i had werent in my head and i wasnt over exaggerating them c': holy shit

going to self care the fuck out of myself tomorrow

my life is going nowhere and im constantly panicking about it instead of doing everything i can about it, how can i not view myself as a parasitic waste of space

whatever you do, do NOT go to the azir main reddit wtf is happening

people are being too nice to me today, if i hadn't have suffered with the spyro game id probably have had to kill something

thought i got lucky this month but no its just late fuck you

i crave affirmation, praise and attention

but i hate being in the spotlight and my immediate reaction is to be violent and dismissive when i recieve any

anyway me right now

maybe i should just get a fucking diary

i need an alt account for my alt account i cant even begin to describe without exploding

i just got caught completely off guard by a reel i seen

im going to have to practice speed running my candle runs so i can impress people during the thon B)

ill do my best to make everyone excited then 💪

i started feeling incredibly guilty about the thon because i didnt like the idea of stretch goals since i had no idea where to put that kind of money into for the channel if it ever got hit

but i think ive decided that if something like that happens, maybe i can have a go at the project after all

whats even the point anymore

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it was the original curry flavoured one i cannot excuse this

just seen someone put tuna into a pot noodle im ending it all

what's even the point 🥲

been nearly 4 months since the start of my outfit commission. 4 months!!!

goth her shit up

i want to give hel a big chunky collar

i want to draw but when i do im not ever happy even when i spend hours on it because my skills wont match what im picturing in my brain but i cant improve if i dont finish the fucking thing REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

internet has been out for 3 hours now wahoo

i dont want to do anything today. im in such a fuckass grumpy mood, to the point im scared im going to upset some people

but when i even take one day off, i feel like a disappointment. taking two off when i can probably just push through it makes me feel even worse

i feel like poop from a butt