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a small puppy is laying in a cardboard box with a blanket . Alt: a small puppy is laying in a cardboard box with a blanket .

Back to sleep

A digital illustration of a medieval banner. It says in medieval inspired script "ye olde trans rights". It is decorated with plants and blue, pink, and white flowers.

ye olde trans rights 🏳️‍⚧️🌿

a pixelated image of a dog 's head with its tongue out Alt: a pixelated image of a dog 's head with its tongue out

I seem to have fully bounced back in the night

That does help actually 💚💚💚🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

a colorful bird is perched on a branch with pink flowers and the word good written above it Alt: a colorful bird is perched on a branch with pink flowers and the word good written above it

Good morning everyone

Pokopia until unconscious is the plan

Sorry for the public crash out !!! I am now just trying to cultivate sleepy energy........

the lovely zivandriel for @lil-faeling.bsky.social 💜💚 thank you sm for trusting me with your lovely oc!!

Okay I am calming down. Got some dog snuggles. I'm okay. I know I am loved and I am not alone and I will be okay.

I feel like I'm back at mental illness square one

Someone tell me im not an annoying piece of shit please. I'm aware of fhe fact that I am crashing out but I'm struggling to combat the spiral.

Having that kinda morose "everyone hates my guts, but who cares bc I don't need anyone" kind of intense lonely sense of..... melancholy?

Illustration of Geeta and Rika from Pokemon Scarlet and Violet. Geeta is reading some documents while Rika plays with her hair with her hands around her waist, the bottom of her face hidden behind Geeta's papers like a dog that brought the evening newspapers. The background has green and gold floral pattern and a liquid gold frame.

revamp #omochiri illust for print

I'm having intrusive thoughts but not active thoughts. If you get what I mean. I'd say im in low level crisis BUT i'm with my family and they know whats going on so I am safe.

Tonight sucks ass.

if they take my hormones away I won't want to be alive anymore.

Just to be clear.

U.S. court allows state bans on gender-affirming care for adults in unprecedented ruling While bans on trans youth’s care have been numerous in recent years, this is the first to restrict care for transgender adults.

NEWS: It was never about the children.

Transgender adults now face care restrictions after the ruling of the federal appeals court in Richmond, Virginia.

www.advocate.com/news/court-b...

I think the testosterone has helped me so much mentally, i convinced myself that I wasn't really mentally ill. That it had all been dysphoria. I wish I had a normal brain. But alas, I do not.

I'll be okay. Just need to give my brain and body some time to recover. Thank you friend 🫂💚

Thank you matt. I'm okay. Gonna take a hot shower to ground myself and then play some Pokémon until I fall asleep.

And I touched that fear last night and I genuinely am terrified and idk!!! I just wish my brain were normal!!!

My worst fear is becoming psychotic again.

I thought it was never going to end. I was terrified I was in psychosis (and I was, actually) thank god it was temporary but my head has been foggy all day and I'm having trouble reading. And what if this is another delusion and I wake up back in that awful high. Fuck.

TW for... everything; it impacted my perception of time so badly I was checking my phone every 2-3 minutes hoping for time to have passed. I lost touch with reality. I had tactile and auditory hallucinations + body sensations I kept thinking I was having seizures. My thoughts were so disorganized. +

Of course I can't handle moderate doses of THC!! I'm literally sick in the brain!!! Why did I do that?

Ugh I'm gonna have to go to therapy bc of what happened last night. I keep trying to distract myself but my paranoid/disorganized thinking has been activated. Fuck. I can't believe I did this to myself. I'm so fucking stupid.

booba

Aela the half elf paladin looking into Lae'zel's eyes

Aela the Paladin sitting naked in all her glory.

Before and After topping Lae'zel

Can't focus on writing gay so instead I will PLAY gay (lae'zel romance)

Ordered sushi 🍣