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i'm not happy about this at all and am dreading the appointment today. the upside.. and it is a definite upside... my left eye is better and i can drive myself if i need to go back to wichita, and i surely will, if not sooner, later. i'll just have to lie about having someone to drive me home

there is only one and i can't image us ever even being in the same room, much less her asking me to. but, yes, absolutely

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this was my second duty station. brunwick. '87 to '91. i was in GREAT shape. run five miles and think nothing of it. within two years everything went to hell and i've been a gimp ever since

three from early on on my first ship. i can tell by what paygrade

boot camp. march '84

this would have been after '80.
note what's on the cinder block there close at hand.

this is from around '78 or'79.
i can tell from the party apartment.
wild place to live.
i wore it this long for a couple of years and had a great stylist.
edna at mother earth

holy crap. hailey pandolfi actually spoke to me on onlyfans. (a quick thank you as i gushed) my spending limit is the only thing stopping me from giving her everything i own so we can laugh at how little that is before she goes on and lives the rest of her life

two of the living room showing the absence of all the stuff i've thrown away and the computer i've been spending so much time on (on the floor) since surgery

three of the kitchen showing the hall. and spot

next are two of the bedroom, shower and hallway. rustic. i haven't slept there since my eye went bad in october

you can't really tell that those are my christmas lights still up. my normal routine is november 1st to valentines. i'm just now getting it done. let me also do the darker pic with george in it. i know, the quality is crappy. ehhh. oh, i'm replacing color with white

that bruise isn't much changed. still, it didn't draw attention out on a run-around yesterday. right eyesight continues to improve slightly every day. at this point these pics are a full disclosure kind of thing. i'm not getting any younger. that's a fact

it doesn't show on the outside, that bruise isn't much better, but, i'm feeling better on the inside. now i get to bark at my "bank" about the fraud alert phone call for giving money to onlyfans, etc. it's possible that that conversation may be nice. if, there's nothing to it, she's just nice

the bruise is definitely better. sight is slightly better every day. me being REALLY pissed at the doctor for over-promising, under-caring and leaving me to twist in the wind for SO long is fading. the rest of my life, as it is, is calling. now what?

what a face. the one marked improvement, my night vision in my left is almost back from having it lasered. with how distorted what i can see with the right, it makes what i see with the left unreliable, especially in very low light. improvement is still improvement even if i can find cause to grouse

i can now see color distinction within objects. fingers lighter than glove that's darker than sleeve all moving against the light brown of the floor and in moderate light. considering the cold-blooded ass-hole of a doctor wildly over-promised, such welcome improvements are still a disappointment

wesley medical in wichita keeps wanting me to do surveys about this nightmare. some aspects of their participation were actually very pleasant. very. like... very. however, there's that nagging, overarching, apathy of the doctors (several) concerning my overall well-being that clouds any positives

saw a different (though seen before) eye doctor in the first follow-up after surgery. it is, was, and will be EXTREMELY difficult not to express my feelings about how this has all gone... considering they may all play a role in problems to come, for the rest of my life.

at a loss for words. (grandiose events are meaningless)

the lighting isn't equal, but it does seem like there's some improvement in the bruising. i'm underwhelmed by any slight improvement in sight, both eyes, so far.

my problem with the epstein files is that there were parents who thought having their children spend time around the very powerful would be a good experience, and it was. they and their children who were not negatively impacted (in their opinion) deserve their privacy.

almost half the people dressed and acting like clowns are democrats

nothing about donald trump comes as a surprise to anyone. that democrats are obsessed with him, rather than charting their own path if elected, proves their lack of qualification to lead. in fact, i demand that democrats begin to work with republicans to accomplish... something. anything.

i ask you, who could love a face like this? (i understand those who don't)

failure to acknowledge that it's not republicans fault that they do get elected is the problem. there is no effective resistance. not where i am. hasn't been, though i've tried and have been shouted down and no one cared (because i'm equally critical of both) again, there is no resistance