Narratively having Ever Given getting stuck in 2021 to set up Hormuz in 2026 is great foreshadowing. You want your audience to understand the basics of international shipping in a lower stakes context so you drop the real plot without a lot of saggy exposition about the minutiae of cargo logistics.
So, looks like i may not be doing as well as I thought earlier
On the one hand, its finally warm enough to enjoy being outside
On the other hand, the bradford pears are in bloom now, so my walk to campus smells like rotting fish and dried cum
I just stick to edibles, I used to use a vape a couple years ago but my lifelong asthmatic ass couldn't take even lower lung capacity lmao
got high and im thinking about bears again i sjould text him
I know there's a lot of ai, once I'm actually going in to getting something I'll vet more closely. I'm not losing too much sleep over bots or ai, easy enough to notice usually.
Just not vetting tonight cause im a little high and so cant tell as easily lmao
I so often forget that I'm bigender when I'm in certain contexts I play up the fem presentation because of being amab, but then I look at men again and realize like
Damn there's still a part of me that's pretty damn gay for men
Not particularly, wasn't intending to fish for people to commission here (though not complaining, useful for once I can afford it), but just kinda writing it out since I was thinking about it and was realizing I should be able to afford it after another couple paychecks
Honestly, probably gonna end up making a few versions once I do, just for use in different contexts, I'm gonna try to write some ideas/sketches down next time I get high lol
I mean its not necessarily urgent, not like i can afford a comm immediately anyways. Just been wanting to get something to consistently represent myself with.
And not super decided on details for the moment, this post wasn't intended to be fishing i was just treating this like a diary lmao
I'll make sure to keep this in mind when I'm able to actually spend some money on a commission, don't wanna commit to anything till I can actually pay a fair amount though
Ok to be clear to anyone else seeing this cause its for some reason getting a lot of attention: I can't afford anything right now, I was musing because I treat social media like a diary lmao, i still gotta get credit card debt down from when I was unemployed lol
I mean not a ton, I cant actually afford it yet, but I've been wanting to get a proper way to represent myself online for a while. I'm planning to put more time towards specifics and trying to sketch what I can while I save up another couple paychecks.
Im mostly musing at the moment, can't actually afford a commission for another couple paychecks. But I'll keep you in mind when I do have the chance.
These look good, I'll follow so I can reach out once I get another paycheck or two and can go past the musing stage on this lol
Admittedly im not actually looking to commission immediately, I just was musing about doing it if my financial situation turns out as decent after my next rent as it looks like it will right now. If so, I'll actually look, and I'll check back with you then.
Oh hi you found a post from when i was crashing out. My meds are working now so ive figured it out. The secret is mood stabilizers and the sun finally being back it seems. And february being over, terrible month.
I can't afford to just yet, it was just on my mind since I'll finally have some disposable income to put towards it soon. After my next paycheck and rent I'm considering it. I'll keep you in mind then.
To be clear i can't afford to just yet, just thinking recently estimating my next paycheck and rent I should soon.
And I've not got anything super specific, i need to soon, I'm just a therian and wanna get a way to express that that's not just this random photo lmao.
Oh yeah also I'm normal again i think, the q1 crashout ended quicker than usual this year, i think thats a good sign
I need to commission someone to make a deer for me already
Is anyone actually happy? How?
I need to go home again i think.
I think id like to get back into it, but i still feel a little fear about backsliding into delusion and even after that habits are just hard to build back up right now, especially when i havent felt much from that direction lately
Honestly I've felt kinda distant from my religion/spirituality for a while, ever since I started experiencing psychosis ive been more cautious, mixed with all the mold last year making my general state worse, ive just been falling away from it
I've lived in this apartment for half a year now and still never had the energy to set my altar back up
I should try to do that soon i always feel better when i have that
Yeah, learning that when I was younger was one of the things that radicalized me against the cops tbh.
But yeah, ice and the iof have a lot of overlap in tactics because they are ultimately related (though i dont know if israel has any *direct* connections to ice so you may still have been technically correct on that part)
Just, i get a bit hesitant with saying israelis as a whole cause ive seen too many times that get used by right wingers as cover for anti semitism. The way they love to co opt anti zionist movements to smuggle anti semitism into the mainstream discussion, yknow?
I would hesitate to say that 'the israelis' are running the government, but the israeli government is intertwined with the us government. The two share imperialist ambitions, its a horrible fascistic symbiosis tbh
