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a poorly drawn wizard cat, wearing a pointed hat and holding a wand, floating diagonally
the wizard cat raises its wand as a magical burst begins to appear behind it, what could it be?
a magical cloud fills most of the frame, containing handwritten text that reads: “your 2026 will be awesome!”
the wizard cat appears very small and distant seen from behind with its little cape spread wide, creating a cheeky farewell after casting its spell
wizard cat has a very important message
i'm trying! mental health was really tanking while my physical health was in the gutter for so long, but i am above water and swimming to shore and can't wait to set foot on stable ground again 😊♥️ may this coming year be calm seas for you, egg!
hope everyone had a great holiday if you celebrated and an incredible new year. new year new opportunities new everything, kick all adversity in the neck - take no shit you can DO IT!!!! AAA!!!
to anyone else facing long standing health issues that for w/e reason you've had to face alone or mostly alone, take it slow, you can absolutely be you again even if it's a new version of you that is much much healthier and happier 🎆 love y'all and i'm going to try by best to get back to it soon
i blinked from jan and now dec is almost over, i still have a lot to do and trying to take it slow to not crash again (i've tried to pick up and go forcibly back to normal a handful of times over the last few years and i burned out horribly) but everything actually FEELS DOABLE omg y'all the HOPE!!!
it seems like i fell off the face of the earth, i somewhat did and i do apologize for my absence but the feeling of being rested without any symptoms i've been facing for YEARS, even for a few days at a time is life changing because i forgot i could even feel that way 😭
i was aiming very modestly for my sleep to be at 5-6 hours (on good days) and after getting a few 8 hour days i'm like holy shit holy shit i'm born anew. cortisol can fuck off, hormones getting balanced, more movement and little to no naps during waking hours as days progress 😊👍 doin' it
it feels like i got a dampener placed on my entire life and was forcibly told "slow the fuck down and rest you dumbass" since it feels stupid NOT doing something??? and even during this time i got "rest" but didn't really rest because i was so anxious and fidgety and insomnia 😭
trying not to hate myself over not "having done enough" this year. when i've cracked a lot of info in regards to my ill-health and getting back to "normal" as well as figuring out how to SLEEP again. if i can get 2 months of straight 8 hour a day rest, i'm legit gonna be fucking unstoppable
MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! i'm a little under the weather but it's all good i hope y'all are doin' okay!!! 🎄🎉 gonna recover and kick ass lets goooo
hell yeah good for you! 😊👍
i almost spit out my damn drink lmao
anyone else ever just wake up pissed off? that's ⬆️ cortisol, which i've never really had in low amounts my entire life. waking up calmly, somewhat refreshed, is so weird to me but i need need need to have it again, everything i've been working on will be more manageable if i do
i finally hit 8 hours of sleep for the first time in a long long time, and the amount of manic hope i have for the immediate future is incredible. doing my best not to count my chickens before they hatch but i will do everything possible to recreate this miracle with my routine! 😭
also to anyone that wants to answer, what's something that's gone SUPER WELL in your life lately? something new or comforting or smth. like a new coffee or drink you like, a new recipe you tried, a new artist you found, tell me stuff i am super nosy lmao
also tysm for anyone following me here or wherever despite my non-intentional but clearly desperately needed health hiatus. i hope you enjoy my work when i'm back to posting regularly ❤️
i wish we had a non-ai internet so people who don't want to deal with a single aspect of it don't fucking have to 😭
trying to fix my body and life and everywhere on the internet is like a slow moving explosion, and the world is following it as well because why not lolol. i'm too old to be dealing with this shit 😂 just let me fucking draw
while i don't think i can pull 8-10 hour drawing sessions, skipping meals, and ignoring the plaster and duct tape on certain issues like before lmao - i do think i can have some semblance of an art life again. even if the world is determined to fuck over artists RIGHT NOW for some fuckin reason
and this isn't just thinking i'm better after a day or week, i've been tracking my sleep and eating and other stuff for over a month and i'm very steady 📈 in all of the areas that were in tatters before, not like "ok now i'm 100% good" but i'm functioning and fixing slowly but surely
but being able to be awake without (as much) coffee, being able to move more, being able to focus a bit more, being able to digest my food properly, and a host of other stuff that's been slowly accumulating- it feels like i'm a person again. now i just need to align work/art/scheduling properly lmao
sleep issues have been a part of my life longer than any of my other physical health issues, and while i HAVE been sleeping a little more lately (5-6 instead of 4 hours on average) i've also been plagued by nightmares. figures, i get more sleep and get dogpiled by ghosts 😭
out here tryin to rapidly follow my leads in fixing my health. getting more n more sleep as the days pass, getting better with my food and mental health. still anxious with art because of the "they all hated me" mindset but that's also going down as i work on my overall health. it's comin!!! 😊❤️
that is incredible wow
i have not thought about tumblr for a minute, dang! do they permit nsfw on there again? it's a broad spectrum word really but if they permit it (like just tasteful pinups) that might be worth looking into tbh
oh yeah just to be damn clear, i do not use and will not use AI in my artwork. i've been out of the game for a bit and my art may change, for better or worse lmao and i'm working on getting back to it. so if you're trying to start anything, y'all can get blocked. ty for your attention ❤️
