alive and unwell

I am once again asking why I can’t just be someone’s Art Hermit for a living

God this time change is fucking with me more than usual

Probably should’ve just stayed in bed today el oh el

It’s only Tuesday and I’m exhausted

Would working from home tomorrow mitigate my depression or make it worse hmm. Though if I sleep thru my alarm it’ll be a moot point

Like, I get that I live in an inconvenient location to all of my friends and I guess that’s my fault and I should try more but damn it hits hard this year

Merry Christmas this is the saddest I’ve felt around the holidays since 2020

I make things (art) as a compulsion and there’s no way I’d stop or even want to reduce the time to make the things that’s the whole damn point I would make a chair right now if I had the space and materials I don’t give a shit

Will this gen ai bullshit bubble just burst already

It’s probably not a bad sign that I was going through my fabric stash and found something that I absolutely do not remember buying. Probably fine 😅

Well the seasonal depression has joined forces with the regular depression and shit sucks man

I know it’s not the most important thing in the world, but for once I would like to have a job that’s decent and not feel like I’m from a different planet than my coworkers. All the jobs I’ve had that I bonded with coworkers have been shit in every other way

Cartoon meme of Sonic the Hedgehog (from Archie Comics' Sonic the Hedgehog comic book series, Jan 1994) lying down and looking smugly at the camera with a speech bubble that reads: “I want bad art made slowly by real people AND I'M NOT KIDDING”

the only good thing about genAI is that it got me to really love seeing bad art, because I know a person put in time and effort, made themselves vulnerable by showing it to others, and is trying to improve. I value that more than anything now

I’m sorry what

That time of the year where I rediscover that I’m apparently solar powered and this is low ebb

New level of NJ Transit bus riding unlocked: two idiots started fighting each other as we were waiting for our bus’s turn to unload at port authority 🙃 I’ve never seen a bus empty that quickly once the doors opened lol

Well, it's a little clearer now why billionaires are so invested in technology that produces better written emails.

There are two mourning doves on my fire escape that have formed themselves into perfect spheres

Finished reading the 1818 version of Frankenstein. Still wish I could remember which version they had us read in hs. I guess I’ll be able to figure that on thanksgiving when I go to my parents’ since apparently that’s where my copy of the book ended up

A biiiig stretch
#ffxiv

Amazing!!

Dragged my corpse to the polls, so I’ve got that going for me 👍

If I could stop being so exhausted that would be great. Please.

Thank goodness

Ah yes it’s that time of year again where my brain throws a tantrum when required to do anything after it gets dark

Annoyingly, out of all the Classics of Literature (TM) that I got bc I had to read them at school, and still own copies of, I somehow don’t have a copy of Frankenstein. I remember reading it for some class too

There is a Gideon the Ninth at Ren Faire, complete with sunglasses 😂 👀

#FF14
#エスティニアン
#Estinien
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