Mason/みそかつ🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️STOP GENOCIDE

My drawing. 3 doodle portraits of a fem character with long orange hair (Reanne/ client's OC). full color. 1 is their younger version standing confidently (full body,) another one is them smiling casually (bust up) and the last one is them looking serious, in the middle of wearing make-ups to cover their scar and freckles on the face.

My drawing. 3 doodle portraits of a masc character with short dark red hair (Keith/ client's OC). full color. 1 is their younger version standing and thinking (full body,) another one is them looking up with an indifferent expression while touching their necklace (bust up,) the last one is their side profile looking frustrated seemingly talking to someone out of the frame.

thank you @sevxra.bsky.social for commissioning me!

it is working again!! (for now) YAY

😭😭 let’s do it tomorrow it’s 1am anyways

No I think I will let it rest and I will redo all the cables and we will see. Ughhh

No fuckin way bro

PC monitor broke.

tho with whatever the reason i should be able to go like "hey im sorry im reading but im having a lot rn i will respond when i can" and i dont know why it is that hard but it is that hard

its not the only source of my "not enough social energy" but like it was a huge one "if i reacted wrong" "if they can smell that deep down im not interested in the IP (im just happy that they are passionate but im not interested in the IP)" "im not faking my passion/politeness/positivity enough"

for once this is not a vent
its more of a relief that i noticed they just go "good for you " "lol" and thats ok when i was talking about my hobby and they responded that as the end of the conversation
i was so anxious when im not interested in their hobbies if i react indifferently and hurt them

Quite an experience of “I’m broken and that’s okay” sentiment rushing in thru out these 3-4months or so. I have never been so happy so calm and so sad at the same time?

I LOVE YOU🫵

why am i always so corny tho

maybe one day i feel so happy im an enby and i be like "i wouldnt have it any other way" even with the memory of feeling so lost for so long being part of my gender identity itself. thatd be awesome. maybe the day never comes and thats okay and i will still be valid. ig knowing this is my happiness

- in a way i thought this kinda thing was inevitable. ofc unlearning is smth we all do as the ppl who wish to better our tomorrow collectively tho. but so i love hearing about more peace and harmony and euphoria type stories. because the experience of learning knowing these exist is euphoric for me

the unusualness and wrongness and trauma are like parts of my gender currently in a way, id imagine similarly as a lot of (cis) women have some internalized misogyny taking small parts of how they perform and perceive their own gender. same as men for toxic masculinity, and -

i think i rather sometimes feel like im a cis-enby as in i was raised in the prime girl-boss era as the eldest "daughter" who was "failing femininity (being too ugly too fat too smart and too autistic etc.)"and i met with this mixture of gendered ideals + "not a real girl" treatment as a punishment

(**absolutely not saying that ppl who love being trans/ who are indifferent about their gender/ ppl who experience gender euphoria -they had it easy, or that they do not experience horrible things like discriminations that are about their genders. thats not my point here🫠)

im so fascinated by the "non-traumatic non-cis experience" kinda idea in general, i think because for me the current version of me and my gender itself cannot be separated from the trauma, and like i made my peace with it. but its so awesome to hear about them you know. we all valid in the end tho.

but also im hating to fall into this sob story cliche you know. i was like "it feels wrong they call me girl/woman but it also feels wrong if i say i wanna be a man, what is wrong with me am i just whiny about the thing that everyone experiences, am i just a bad person" not knowing "enby" is a thing

im fascinated by the ppl who are like "i love being trans" and also who are like "i am indifferent about my gender" like their life stories and all
i am like "i hated feeling like im lost i wanted to belong so bad and i was the one whose feeling was screaming 'NO' despite desperately longing for it"

aaaa ~~ help ~~ help ~~
(is what im feeling right now for no real reason whatsoever) (i rly do not know why im feeling this) (lmao)

i guess i can just list up the genres my drawings fall into in the captions or use hashtags or whatever. but like i want it to like prevent the image from triggering anyone and its not the most efficient
and then i feel mad of the bsky moderation you guys add non-con/dub-con fiction tag or whatever

but its not necessarily even slightly gore like what do i do man

i want nsfw label to be more diverse and effective tho like
even with nsfw labeling im scared of triggering sm1 if it remotely counts as like a non vanilla category 🫠

(ctrl+F and find Kiragi and other gen2 kids there ...🫶)

Im so happy with author’s masterpiece are you kidding me its so cute

Dwyer would totally “my princesses” and it’s such a massive cringe but no one in this weird nuclear family reacts appropriately (Appropriate is mega cringe stop motion silence) (But it’s Dwyer who knows it’s kinda cringe so he never does that when his parents are there)

Diakamu transfem daughter Kana …

*spoilers?
its Nyx!Dwyer (Jakob/Nyx) and Dwyer!Corrin (+i spotted Kiragi/Midori😤)
but its ensemble cast and a whole bunch of other characters are doing their cool buttle stuff in this amazing Revelation route reimagination where Corrin is they/them and they have their Goku moment i utterly love this

Strength From Love - AuthorDGaster - Fire Emblem Series [Archive of Our Own] An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

thank you @authordgaster.bsky.social !!!

I !!!!!! COMMED!!!!!!!! AUTHOR !!!! TO WRITE!!!!!! MY OTP!!!!!!! DIAKAMU VALLA FINAL BUTTLE!!!!!!!
AND THIS IS AMAZING OH MY GOD
Dwyer/Corrin is so here thank you
archiveofourown.org/works/80855221