my bald ass head with grey shirt that says 1995
i'm now bald. yesterday was full of big emotions & lots of tears. this was the hardest thing i've ever done. my hair was an core piece of my sense of self & i tried to achieve perfection every day. it's feeing to shatter the imaginary ideal that i could never meet
lmao my hair is so fucked up from the hot round brush i used that it's so knotted and matted i have to shave my head 🙃
let's hear it for my saturn return not letting me escape it without teaching me i need to stop being dependent on my hair for self esteem
wdym venus is going to station retrograde the day of my solar return this year hahaha no really WHAT DO YOU MEAN
took a mental health day from work should i watch snow white again (i watched it twice last night)
fucking lasagna upside down on the DOOR OF MY OVEN bc this day could not possibly have gotten worse at that point like are we so fucking serious
hahahahahahaha i hate it here
watching the live action snow white for the third time in three days in case anyone was wondering how i was doing
hi y'all i'm super depressed like spent the last several days watching disney movies exclusively depressed but wanted to stop in & post proof of life & say i love y'all. i'll be back when my mental health gives me capacity to be ❤️
the sequel: breakdown! at the family function
disassociating for christmas
acoustic guitar
😍😍😍 she's all mine. gimme 6 months & i'll be performing an acoustic version of the eras tour
i'm having a rough go as christmas nears. it's my first since my grandpa passed & since confronting many sources of trauma in my childhood. i'm feeling like a grinch on the best days. on the worst, i'm hoping for a sink hole to open & swallow me in one gulp. trying just to feel it & not avoid it 🫠
❤️ you're welcome. my DMs are always open, even if just type-screaming words that don't make cohesive sense or even just AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
social media is a minefield rn for survivors of sex abuse, in childhood & otherwise, w/ the epstein files being shared often w/o content warnings. it can be difficult to hold two truths: yes, its important the files are public AND it can be massively triggering. i see you, i'm with you, i love you 💕
hate holiday party day bc i'm having a trauma response to christmas this year & my entire nervous system is too scared to celebrate at all lolllll
i wish crying wasn't so socially taboo bc i cry every time i feel a strong emotion like why does something have to be wrong i'm just EMO
obligatory im not watching eps 3 & 4 of the doc til tonight or maybe tomorrow. i'll continue using my prev reaction thread
love holiday party day bc i'm in driving my lil buick in a santa dress giving motherfuckers in big trucks the finger for not following traffic rules
this is the best thing i have been told today
wdym the giver is on obama's top music of 2025 list bc 🤣🤣🤣
plus the tayvis "wedding" of it all & how we're all crying out for her to please speak on issues & also somehow someway sara barellies' brave connects to this in my head too
got emo thinking about speak now (the song) through the lens that it's about being brave enough to shout your love for someone even when everyone around you will hate you for doing it, for ruining "the wedding" & knowing that but taking the risk anyway.
nothing says ADHD like forgetting whether or not you took your stimulant
i watched the docuseries about dryden, NY (village of the damned, it was on tubi) and i can't stop thinking about it. a decade of death & violent destruction from '89-'99. i can't find data on 2000-2010 but from 2011-present - not a single murder. i'm utterly fascinated. its stephen king shit
i think JT's "this is going to ruin the tour" is on my top memes of the 2020's list so far
HAPPY 250TH JANE AUSTEN I AM A DIFFERENT PERSON BC YOU WROTE PRIDE & PREJUDICE
oh thats new for me. i'm in too bad of a mood to even watch the football game.
im alone with my own thoughts all of the time & there's no one i can talk to. i have to push my shit aside & shut up bc me having a hard time is nothing compared to what she's doing so its all festering
i brushed my car off and got snow on myself & now im having a breakdown in the aldi parking lot
my wife is currently working 10 hour shifts, 7 days a week and ngl i am having a hard time 🙃
i dislike winter bc i hate how many more things i have to put on to leave. thick socks, boots, parka, scarf, gloves, hat. don't forget if it snowed overnight you have to brush off your car. & it's cold so you gotta wait til your engine warms up to leave. my executive functioning would rather Not.
she's lowkey teaching entire generations the apparently lost art of catharsis through art
catharsis in this sense was first recorded by Aristotle in the Politics & Poetics, 'comparing the effects of music and tragedy on the mind of a spectator to the effect of catharsis on the body'
poets🤝politics
