I've disabled my Discord. I'm still deciding on whether to just fully delete the account or not. If you don't know how to get in touch with me outside of discord... Idk what to tell you.
Honestly, even if I weren't tipsy, I'm probably still not in a good state to drive
Karaoke ended. Can't go home rn, despite living in walking distance. Still too tipsy to drive to my friend's house for their offered couch.
And I don't think most of my friends really know or understand me beyond a surface level
I feel like I am though. I don't feel like the people I call my friends would return in kind if they really knew me. So much of my past still affects and haunts me. And I don't know how or when it's appropriate to tell someone. And I never want to trauma dump on them either.
There's just. so. Much.
I know I have friends. I just wish I felt like I had friends. it's not their fault, though. I'm just too much for most people
Idk if it's depression or a resurgence in ED shit, but my food intake the last week or so has been... not good
I'm gonna do it. If I don't now, I never will.
A:tLA Tier List is a GO!
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#whamageddon got me this year. I enter the gates of Whamhalla as we speak. All because I am covering a coworkers shift during a burlesque show.
I told twitch I was technically celebrating my streamaversary today and plans got changed due to weather. So the party continues. Why not have a birthday WEEK celebration anyway!
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I feel like a real attorney. Thanks everyone for coming out! We raided @yashawoo.bsky.social
I'm here for a good time, we'll see if I make it a long time (on stream). That's right, it's the birthday/streamaversary stream! I'm back baby (for today at least). I have literally nothing planned so we'll see how this goes. Come join the train-wreck.
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welp. i fucked up. apparently we're officially (according to twitch) celebrating the streamaversary tomorrow. Unlikely that I will actually stream tomorrow. That's when my wife and I are celebrating my birthday because they're off work. I couldn't choose today because I waited too long lol
It's my birthday! Huzzah, huzzah, huzzah (threateningly)!
My streamaversary AND my birthday are in less than a week. I may use it as my return to streaming. We'll see. It'll probably be just a normal stream. I'll just go as long as I feel able.
1. A landmark study was just published in The Journal of Pediatrics.
It found a 68% reduction in suicidality for trans youth getting HRT.
It also found only 7 of more than 400 stopped taking HRT... and of those that did, 4 still identified as gender-diverse.
Transgender care saves lives.
I really fucked up. I'm sorry
take #2
You know what? I need to get back to it. It's time for a stream! Gonna start with some art and see where that takes us!
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I think what I'm gonna do is go ahead and do an Avatarverse Tier list because I really want to; what I'm gonna do is save it for my affiliate streamaversary. Which is coming up on December 3rd, technically, but my birthday is on the 1st so that's when we ride!
Alright people 👏🏻 I'm finally coming up out of my depressive episode I've had for at least the last 2 weeks. I'm gonna work on getting the poll out for what new emote I'm gonna make. We hit 6 subs during the subathon thanks to @ezroz.bsky.social leave emote suggestions in replies if you got em.
1) If you're not aware of something like that before you take a gig that means your management sucks for doing this to you
2) She's not quitting the project so I guess she doesn't think they suck
Though I will say that with my spouse being who they are, Wingspan would be the best one to play. At least in my case.
Probably Ticket to Ride Europe or OG Carcassonne. Dorfromantik looks cool though, I just haven't played it.
The one with the Spiel Des Jahres ribbon?
What's the game on the bottom right behind the stack of smaller games?
I feel this should go without saying, but this is not a requirement to plea or anything. This is just really something I want to share with people.
If someone wanted to gift this to me, I would cry and owe you like a thousand things.
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Sorry I haven't been active lately. The world is burning and my heart is breaking. I need to do something, but everything feels hopeless. I want shit to BURN
It went really well. I think we both healed some.
