☆Dante☆

All of them!! + their "activated" versions :P

My OCs Yoru Hinawa (blonde) and Gaaku Itamuro (dark)

New #oc illustration.
#ocsky #art

Full pic of my new OCs in comments

I tried my best 😅

#rerir makeup for my future cosplay

#ocsky #oc #art

My OC Dante

Original photo is old, but I tried to edit it now XD

Old photo from 2024

#Aventurine #hsr #cosplay

Tea
Teeeaaa
TEEEEEEAAAAAA!!!!!

Still alive but tired as fuck.

Just wanna have some mental stability, am I asking for too much?.. 🥲

Can't say that the whole life sucks but my current health situation sucks as well

#WutheringWaves #Scar

#cosplay by me, photo my Gerdä!23

Sorry for inactivity, I just need some rest 🥲🙏

Another pic of #Phainon
#hsr

#cosplay made by me
Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

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The only thing that calms me down at the moment is the fact of having genetically masculine(?) body type.

That's all I guess :/

Even when I went to the con
Some people just came up to me and then "oh GIRL blah-blah-blah" and when I tried to explain I'm not a girl the just.. Laughed?? And looked at me like I'm out of my mind??

WELL WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE–
I'm not incorrect or weird or crazy it's just your intolerance

Small reminder that my pronouns are HE/HIM and I'm male.
And I'm doing my best to improve myself, to lose weight and become kinda conventionally beautiful.

I've been bullied for being "incorrect" for my entire life and I'm so tired of all this shit tbh

I'm really tired of this permanent misgendering and disrespect to trans people in our country. I always had to explain and apologize for being trans WHAT THE FUCK–

And all the bullying for weight, cmon what are you thinking about when you're hating people for their appearance?! Sounds like shit

TW eating disorders/trans dysphoria

It's kinda like a torture to feel myself caged in my own body. Because it's too defective?? Wrong?? Idk
Living with and eating disorder and being trans at the same time is shit because you hate yourself x2

I wanna lose weight and finally do the top surgery...

Another pic with the doctor

#Dottore #cosplay #GenshinImpact

Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

Totally forgot to post it but here's my Rerir wig upgrade I did this week :P

Before/After

Con stuff :3
#cosplay

Modern!AU #Rerir #GenshinImpact

#cosplay
Waiting for my full costume of this guy haha

#phainon #hsr #cosplay

Photo by @samessy.bsky.social
Cosplay made by me

#Anaxa #hsr #HonkaiStarRail

#cosplay by me
Photo by Gerdä!23

Latest irl stuff

I'm so sorry for publicly posting all these thoughts below but I can't hold it anymore

I've also "earned" an eating disorder during the attempt to turn myself into my better version. It wasn't worth. Just killed me mentally.

Of course my cosplay skills have grown up for latest years BUT IT IS NOT ABOUT FUN ANYMORE.

It is about competing with others, criticizing myself as hell and trying to be better and better AND BETTER endlessly.

I HATE the tendency of turning cosplay into a modeling business.

We're doing this for fun and positive emotions, not for suffering, self-hate and competing each other.

I never was a mentally healthy and stable person beyond the "pretty picture".

I'm totally broken and torn apart for YEARS because of all the shit people did to me for so long.

I can barely go outside without tears and feeling ugly.

I'm afraid of stalking from haters and other shit I've already experienced A LOT.