Dear Bluesky,
...Maybe I've been doing too much. Like, I've got a ton of social platforms, but don't use them, just "Lurk".
Mayhaps, it is time for me to give you another chance.
The worst is that he's made them publicly disown us, made them believe I abandoned them, and made them both violent to their mothers/ his ex-wives he himself would attack...
Just. Like. Dad.
...I don't even want revenge, I just want my girls back.
#MentalHealth #Unforgivable
...The most painful thing is to know that because you decided to go down a path of change and healing, your toxic brother would follow the family curse and poison his daughters minds to anger and hatred.
"ADHD tends to affect sexual appetite, some can become hypersexual, due to the dopamine fix..."
😑: Don't believe it.
[Said after fapping 3 times, because everything looks very sexy and can't focus unless balls are drained. Mind gets crystal clear afterwards.]
🍃🔥😮💨🤔😈:
"...Lotta folks wanna talk about how hard it is to make the vision a reality, but don't talk about how they could HELP those who can.
...People wanna talk about how they're not cut out for something, and they didn't take a second to think how they could get to it their own way."
When you write a decent first draft about a #MentalHealth breakthrough, where you finally obtain peace because the place you experienced trauma is being bulldozed and the people who did it have ruined lives, addictions, lifelong prison sentences, or dead, while you watched and laughed in therapy.
#yandere
😊: ...Hey mom! Remember your childhood doll that I dressed up for you? I'd like for [daughter] to have it; She'd be over the moon!
🧏🏿♀️: That never was my childhood doll. I had it made when I was [military ] and dating your [military] father...it was "our baby".
😐: ...Wut?
I've been keeping myself in control, trying to not lash out or see everyone as a potential enemy... And folks are making it more and more difficult to not go back to intimidation and violence to keep people back. I know this'll pass, and I'll talk to my therapist bout it, but shit's tough today.
#MentalHealth
I just hit a breakthrough, allowing me to feel much better and more at peace... Just in the nick of time for my insurance to be taken from me. So my new and more positive mentality will have to be field-tested, while I watch where I felt peace turn into where I learned war.
1. Get Linux. Get familiar with it, notice that it doesn't monitor nor get viruses like windows, learn about pi-hole.
2. Get armed in some form or fashion, learn to defend yourself.
3. Start sharing resources with your friends both physically and digitally.
4. Remember to make time to get R&R.
Mushroom Coffee:
🤳🏽: Mushroom coffee is a great alternative for NEURO-SPICY folks to get energized, minus the weird effects (brain goes ape)!
😑: *sips coffee and waits*
......This didn't do shi- *Notices I accomplished EVERYTHING* 😐... Wow.
I implore you, those whose hearts were in the right place, who wanted to see the place we call home to be safe, fight alongside us, rise with us as comrades and fight alongside us, as we seek to bring life, liberty, and true happiness to our fellow countrymen!
But some of you didn't get it... Some of you are living a piss 9-5, after all those promises and reassurance, pain from shit you had no clue you were exposed to and having to pay out the ass to get relief for, the nights where you can't escape what you did... I understand and I am so so sorry...
YOU GAVE AND GAVE, YOUR COMRADES FOUGHT AND DIED BESIDE YOU, AND ALL THEY WANT TO GIVE YOU IS A CHECK AND TELL YOU TO NOT HIT YOUR WIFE?!? YOU DEFENDED OUR COUNTRY!!! YOU DESERVE PROPER HEALTHCARE! YOU DESERVE OPPORTUNITIES TO THRIVE! THESE BASTARDS TOOK ADVANTAGE OF YOU AND YOU DESERVE HUMANITY!
Neither I nor my bloodline will ever negate what you gave; your courage and adherence to your oath will always have my respect and should we find ourselves fighting capitalist-tyrrany "Domestic", it would be my honor to fight alongside you. But I would also ask you... DO YOU SEE THIS AS FAIR?!?
I've friends who have witnessed things no alcohol nor drug will erase; friends breaking down, lamenting how they, "fought for oil!", to even feeling like they've nothing worthwhile anymore...
But I remember you.
I also remember how this government took advantage of you...
Most of these people, the friends to be honest, I have seen go to war. I saw these people I love, go off to fight and potentially die to defend this "life" our leaders say others seek to end, or it's a duty to "introduce freedom" to someplace, calling you a "hero" only to toss you aside afterwards
#High-Thought
#Warhammer40K
...As much as I love the lore and universe of 40k, from what I have learned of their beliefs, I would NOT want to introduce them to this world. Yeah, we'd unite with other lives, but we'd be in the pocket of The Imperium.
Let US ALL of the #working-class, those with and without, come together, unite as a collective, and care for one another. Let us grow friendships, form unions, break bread as friends and eventual family, and come together against a government that will abandon us to further line their pockets.
#Socialism
We as a community have seen, time and time again, that our civil well-being, which we've entrusted to a select few, will self-geld in the name of "Radical Civility". It is up to US, those in the trenches and on the streets, to unite against authoritarianism and eventual fascism together.
I alone am responsible for my soul, while they guide and advise to what may be virtuous.
I do not mind what you believe in, as it isn't my business, so long as we do not come into conflict, and I would respect the same. You may bless me, we may raise a glass, but my salvation is mine & mine alone.
Where one would feel lost or afraid, I have found freedom.
Concerning these "Gods"... I show respect, learn their wisdom, and can CHOOSE to take on their qualities to self-improve. I learned the freedom to "Walk freely with as a friend and student", than "Kneel before in fear and loyalty".
Now, I have given up faith and rather realize I've created something else.
I no longer worship nor rely on any God or Diety, as Musashi taught in his Dokkodo, as well as recognize that I alone have ultimate power, responsibility, and authority over myself; nobody else. (NG/NM)
By elementary school, I was already "enlightened" to my mortality, and how I would be judged for my "sins" (so can't be a kid, gotcha!), while I saw everyone else do whatever they wanted. Over time, I spoke of what I was taught and they enlightened me to the freedom they had in their hearts.
#High-Thought #Worship
From Birth, I was Southern Baptist... Not understanding the dogma these grown adults were screaming at me, I grew up feeling fear to do things considered "wrong", "Lest ye face the wrath of the LORD!".
#MentalHealth
When you've cleaned your CPAP and think much clearer now, to noticing that when you toke your meds, your thoughts slow just enough that it's manageable and lucid, while previous meds just hyped you up to match your brain's speed.
This is less taxing and keeps me healthily productive.
Gotta admit, the $300 Vizio I got years ago turned out to not be as good as I thought... But the older 150$ 4k from LG I got from a pawn shop is still running circles around it.
Before y'all try to call BS, I went and took another screenshot: ....Damned shame, bruh.
CW: Racism.
This 💩 popped up on my FB news feed two days ago. Couple of my comrades got it on theirs too... Biggest dog whistle I've ever seen.
> 😈 Start vocalizing agitation, set boundaries, give verbal warnings, and remain calm, steadfast and confident in your training, should someone attack.
> Confrontations lessen, much more civil dialogue, calming down, less anxiety.
> 🤷♂️ "Hey, it's helping my #mentalhealth and keeping me cool; DKITYTI"
