M | Patron Saint of Quiet Desperation |

So guess who just showed up in the gym after a decade of avoiding it?

Felt like an idiot just on the treadmill. But after a while it actually felt nice.

Currently powered by an extra large cam of V, Paracetamol and the power of gay hockey love.

Sick and struggling to work.

....wish me luck.

I either have a fever or this is just a massive stress response.
Por que no los dos
Sigh
My meat bag is currently disappointing me right now.

I am avoiding the news for a bit. Got doom scrolling.

Found out I still have D4 on my PS5. Gonna lose myself in Sanctuary for a bit.

a white heart with the words love is love written inside of it ALT: a white heart with the words love is love written inside of it

Gonna be missing Mardi Gras this year. (Lord knows I'm getting too old to be prancing about.) But I'm still so glad to live in a world where it exists.

Love is love, my friends.

My friends are all so fucking smart and classy. The things they're into are so fucking interesting and smart and artistic.

Then here I am. Loving such basic popular shit.

I am too old to be a fandom girlie.

I may or may not have stayed up all fucking night to binge That Gay Hockey Show.

....I did.

I am too fat, old and boring to be doing this.

Hey hey I used to matter

What kind of Asian household doesn't have tiger balm?!?

And THIS close to Chinese new year?!!!

In related news: back pain is a bitch in your 40s.

GUESS WHO HAD TO FROG 1 WEEKS WORTH OF WORK ON A CROCHET PROJECT BECAUSE TREBLE MEANS SOMETHING DIFFERENT BETWEEN UK AND US PATTERNS?!????
[incoherent screaming]

A bunny wearing a black cap partially covering its eyes, sits on a sunny surface.

Having those days when I'm being particularly goofy just so I don't set fire to everything.

We honor those we have cherished by keeping them in our memories and singing songs of their glory. The pain you feel is not that of a scar, but the loss staking a claim in your heart that ensures you will never forget them.

A small brown bunny lies on a red and white polka-dotted blanket.

A brown bunny stands on hind legs, appearing to lift a barbell in a gym.

a list of a spotify queue : "Dirty Thoughts" By Chloe Adams, followed by "Katawan" by Hagibis then finally "Papa Don't Preach" by Madonna

i was ridiculously amused by what my shuffled queue came up with.

It feels like the girl's thoughts, then the boy's reply then the inevitable ending...

Eraserheads - Ang Huling El Bimbo YouTube video by EraserheadsVEVO

Eraserheads is one of those bands i only truly appreciated when i got a chance to properly read their lyrics (audio processing problems whut)

So this is for them : for all the ones i thought i would have another chance to dance with. 2/2

youtu.be/lajnSJZpI34?...

I'm doing my nails because i'm back to work tomorrow.

This song came up on my spotify and it just caught me in one of those introspective moods. 1/2

Prayer for Uninteresting Times   Send me a slow news day, a quiet, subdued day, in which nothing much happens of note, save for the passing of time, the consumption of wine, and a re-run of Murder, She Wrote. Grant me a no news day, a spare-me-your-views day, in which nothing much happens at all, except a few hours together some regional weather, a day we can barely recall. Brian Bilston

This, please.

Day 2 of heatwave down my end. Means hiding at Mac sq for aircon while I get started on work. (Shhh I'm not back til next week...)

Oh also a haircut!

I need someone to be proud of me; I walked away from lincraft without buying anything.

They changed their icon and user name again
A reminder
This user ihatethewayithink/xvcxvcxvx stole my friend's discord account and deleted servers, attempted to extort money from them. They have been reported to @discord.com and the police
keep an eye out and do not trust them.
#hackeddiscord #thief

[A fist strangling a snake with swastika eyes.] NO MERCY FOR FASCISM

Happy 2026

Goodbye 2025, what a shithole you have been.
Here's to 2026, may you be kinder.

The world may seem full of pain and anguish, but there is good and hope as well. These things must be fought for. Do not despair, for even the smallest acts of honor are a light in the darkness. Join me as we bring these flames together, and watch as even the deepest shadows are pushed back.

They have changed their icon again.
A reminder
This user ihatethewayithink stole my friend's discord account and deleted servers, attempted to extort money from them. They have been reported to @discord_support and the police.
keep an eye out and do not trust them.

this monster with the name ihatethewayithink just stole my friend's discord account.
We have reported them to both discord and the police (for extortion attempts)
Please be aware and do not trust anything they send.

...i have had a fever for the entire afternoon and i am so fucking exhausted. This is NOT how i wanted to spend my annual leave.

2.) am currently sick as a dog. Two days into my annual leave and I can barely breathe through a blocked nose and a blinding headache on top of on and off fevers.

Yeesh.

So.
1.) all my friends have given me cozy ass games. I mean, I do love them. But it may be a sign of how stressed they think I've been...

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