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Basil theme, bc it’s officially been 5 years (on 1/1/26) since I became obsessed with Omori : )

Hi, it’s been, a long time lol. Sorry, I forgot to keep updating here. I need to use this more I really like Bluesky, but I’m alive so hi!

Ohmygod idk what it is with morning shifts but I’m always left dry heaving constantly, I have to go to an interview in 45 minutes I CANT be sick like this rn????
STOP IT @ my body????

I caved and joined egge, anyone else here on it?? My irl is pentamori so feel free to add me! Not much is set up yet but I’ll get to it eventually!

Grief
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I hate that he did this to me, I’ll see something I want to show him and then remember….like, I can’t talk to him about the Omori manga, he never got to read it.

I wish we had more of a chance, but he took that with him when he passed away.

I have an interview this Friday!! I have had an interview for this store two times in the past… so let’s see if third times the charm??

Yeah I’ll uber bc the next one will def get me there late…

Debating if I’m gonna attempt the next bus or if I’m just gonna uber bc if I try the next bus I will be late for work.

But ubering can be expensive 😭

I missed my bus to get to work on time 😭

Works been horrid these past few days what the fuck??

I have to buy the dye online bc the store that sells the brand I use does not have the colour I want, issue is it’s more expensive online bc not only is the price in USD so it’s more expensive with the conversion but also there’s shipping 😭

I get paid this week, if I have enough money (idk if I will bc I booked those days off for the anime con) I need to get my hair cut, it’s grown out I want the style I had back : (

Got to watch some anime through discord with my roommate and his fiancé and that helped me feel a little better.

Please…I need things to actually improve…

This year was suppose to be about new beginnings for me, according to the tarot readings I have done, why then has it been just suffering?

Sorry, this is long, idk what to do atm, I want to be happy but idk how.

I just needed to vent.

For me with how everything is against me.

I want to end things sometimes, bc I don’t want to struggle like this anymore and I don’t think it’s gonna get better.

But I also don’t want to hurt the ppl who care about me by ending it, bc I know first hand that destroys you.

Like this year so far has been iffy, I owe 1k for my tax return that was due yesterday and I still can’t pay it, I owe my mom more then that for the dental work that I had to get done, I’m struggling financially in life on top of everything else, I just don’t see how life is suppose to get better-

A higher paying job so I’m stuck where I am. I also can’t hold a job to save my life, my mental health gets so bad at work that I quit and find something else hoping it will work out but it never does. I just want to find my path.

I hate that I feel this way, a relationship won’t magically fix all my issues, that I know. But I can’t help feeling this way, I just can’t.

I also don’t know what I want to do for the long run in life, I’m not talented enough at anything to really make it a career. And I’m not smart enough for-

I have had a crush of sorts since his passing but I am about 99% sure it’s not mutual, so I have not acted on it. I do wish someone would come along who does feel the same, someone who at least accepts my fictionkin and my relationship with Blue as well. Idk if I’ll ever find that.

I just want life to feel worth living for me again, I just don’t know how to go about that.

Im lonely for one, I think about my late boyfriend a lot, how I wish he had not ended his own life, would I be happy with him still? We would have been together for a year and a half I think if he was alive.

Tw for sui thoughts mention (I’m safe though)
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I can’t help but just notice how miserable I am. It’s just many bad things that have happened these past few years and idk anymore.

I find myself fantasizing about my passing, but I don’t actually want to end things-

Also going by K online so let’s see if this sticks?

Kanade theme time 💜

May 11th can’t come fast enough, my roommates and I secured our tickets for the PJSK movie and it’s for May 11th (jealous of those who already have the movie out lol.)

I’m fighting for my life avoiding spoilers atm. (And so far I have not gotten many thank goodness.)

Here’s some Ena Shinonome fanart I drew as the final for one of my classes :D tried out a bit of a different style with this one!!

#pjsk #projectsekai #pjsk_FA #enashinonome #digitalart #artist #art

Ok so I AM in charge tonight, I don’t wanna be but I am, I did not quit “yet”.

I’m gonna try to hold out until next week, bc I wanna talk to my manager at my dish job this weekend first, but I may quit ether way next week, we will see.

Also tempted to start going by K online?? Not just bc I kin Kanade but like my name IS Khloe so it works??

(There are likely still typos, idk if I used the right were, I don’t think I did. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

Truthfully I SHOULD wait at least until next week because I wanna just talk to my manager at my dish job about any updates, but at the same time, my mental health is getting worse, I need out.

I’ll update if I do end up quitting today. (Well, giving my two weeks in.)

If you saw the original post no you did not (there were typos.)

Anyways, no updates from the email this morning but I’m fully expecting to get in to work today to be told that I’m in charge, I have my resignation letter ready, it’s short, polite and to the point.

I’m not fucking around anymore.