Sheva

Not me last night wanting to look up Apollo/Mel smut when I know damn well I'm the only one that ships that

I remember learning about the Hays Code in film school and how it made it so that any amoral protagonist had to meet karmic justice by the end of the film and going “wow, that’s really silly” and then once a week I log online and see people argue that we need stuff like that now or it’s problematic

Sheva's storygraph wrap-up for February 2026: 8 books read, 3,290 pages, average of 3.21/5. A graph at the bottom shows pages read on each day of the month.

@caitlinstarling.com ⭐🌟⭐

Starving saints, hungry saints

Much like the double binds I was put into as a child, it feels ridiculous to claim that I was physically abused AND emotionally neglected. And then I'd be asking people to try to remember if they noticed what was happening, which feels like an impossible request.

Also, it's not like they care, right? They aren't my friends, they're people my parents socialized with in the last 20 years. Almost none are still social acquaintances with me. So it would feel like a cold call, like "knock knock have you heard why I have cptsd?"

Part of why it's hard to have cptsd is that I constantly want to tell people in my life why I have it, but I can't. The people that contributed the most to my condition are financially supporting me. If I told family friends what happened, idk what the result would be.

🤏 this fucking close to returning to my roots and only doing vent lyric posting like a true millennial

thinking about my bf <3

Library reading: How a game lives (by Jacob Geller) and Painting the Worlds of Studio Ghibli.

Two images from the movie Princess Mononoke: San says, It's over. Everything is over. Ashitaka says, Nothing is over. The two of us are still alive. Behind them, a wave crashes.

This is all I've got today.

went over to my local queer bookstore to buy a copy of Cinder House and the relief of it being there and being counted as queer when i've seen a few reviews say its not queer enough because it isn't exclusively sapphic... <3

Suddenly remembered that around 2014 or 2015 I rpd a cult AU with Porrim and all the makaras and they target her because she feels marginalized on her college campus. What I'm saying is I invented Midsommer

idk what word i would use to describe how i can tell my emotional problems have been bad is because my entire homerow of most visited sites rn are all shopping. tough stuff

comic: when it happens I hope people ring bells and blow horns. if I'm asleep I hope to be woken. I won't mind. if I'm in traffic I hope to see revelers. If it causes a traffic jam I won't mind. I don't want to exist a moment not knowing that it has happened.

Lil' comic about hope and longing 💗

shhh i'm imagining the most devastating the Pitt edit known to mankind (set to Lucy Dacus' Please Stay)

You read 54 genres: 40 fantasy, 22 horror, 22 science fiction, 16 mystery, 9 thriller, 9 historical fiction, 8 romance, 7 nonfiction, 5 young adult, 4 contemporary

2025 at a glance, with book covers. The book cover shape varies, if rectangle it was read as a real book or e-book, if square it was read as an audio book. There are 56 books: Vol. 12, 13 and 14 of Delicious in Dungeon. The House of my mother. the haunting of hill house. winter tide. the butterfly garden. deep roots. Apothecary Diaries manga vol. 1. Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents. Annie Bot. Sunrise on the reaping. Kingdom of needle and bone. the incest diary. the bright sword. the berry pickers. the deep. a psalm for the wild built. world war z. woe a housecat's story of despair. the ministry of time. blood over bright haven. the way of kings. final girls. the hollow places. square^3. the in-between bookstore. gild. appetite for innocence. complex ptsd from surviving to thriving. overgrowth. the hierarchies. Doodles. The god of the woods. born of persuasion. dusk or dark or dawn or day. the grace year. hell followed with us. death of the author. before she sleeps. katabasis. spiderman the art of the movie. will i ever be good enough. sisters in hate. north american lake monsters. there is no antimemetics division. the roses of may. peter darling. a house with good bones. the strength of the few. the summer war. you weren't meant to be human. princess mononoke: The Art and Making of Japan's Most Popular Film of All Time. The Art of Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind: Watercolor Impressions. sisters of the vast black. cinder house.

I read 56 books this year! So many good ones! My favorites were:
Blood Over Bright Haven by M.L. Wang,
Sisters in Hate: American Women on the Front Lines of White Nationalism by Seyward Darby,
Cinder House by Freya Marske, and
The Innsmouth Legacy #1 - Winter Tide by Ruthanna Emrys.

meanwhile, the need for siscon/brocon is rising. will i be able to resist the siren song of River/Simon

tbh anything slightly masque of the red death i find pretty exhausting, and this is like. queer medieval lady knights of the red death. with bonus creepypasta elements

starving saints good but damn is it exhausting, i'm barely at the 50% mark and contemplating the head space i'd have to be in to finish it

nothing quite as validating as posting a defensive review of a book you like online (on the basis of a bi/pan/queer issue), then looking up the author and seeing she's reskeeted similarly defensive posts on the same issue lol

its pretty convenient to have aragorn as a touchstone to explain the way i like my bf to look sometimes because if i had to give the accurate answer (Cesare from the Borgias) I think I would be rightfully killed on the spot

Trying to post pics but the site keeps refreshing. Ig look on Facebook

Happy birthday to me and Rose Lalonde 🥰

Just want to write het beta4beta smut

Having separate laying down time with the bf,I see a funny anti barking product, send it to him. Starts riffing on product, saying it's a beam attack etc

Anyway this is love

What type of anatomy books do you like? Examples?

My Strength of the Few book finally gave up and just makes an outright star trek reference

need something to express "i used to be worse" to everyone who sees me