Now my website is a consistent evolution of my vision. It will only get better from here.
Thankful. Grateful. Blessed
Good things are here. Good things are coming.
I knew then that what I was launching was not my full vision. But I also had to trust that I would need to grow into my full vision. Iβm so glad I trusted the process. Iβm so thankful I trusted myself. Iβm so thankful I leaned into the growth.
I will never forget my nervousness and the way my impostor syndrome, and my perfectionism almost stopped me from launching my website.
Itβs been a little over two years since I launched my website again and Iβm so proud of my growth. From services to events to the protocol in which I handle my clients. Everything has improved since the moment I hit publish on December 2023.
My love is better for all of the lessons that I have learned.
Connection over collection.
Thankful. Grateful. Blessed.
Good things are here. Good things are coming.
Even though Iβm grateful that Iβve purged these people from my life I also donβt regret any of the love I gave to them. All they did was prepare me to love the people who can offer me real connection even stronger.
After all, collections are supposed to sit pretty in their curio case and be on display. Theyβre not supposed to talk back when mistreated.
When it was time to be held accountable for the things that they did to me, they ghosted me. This was often the indication that I had been collected. When they didnβt want to repair the relationship when they did harm.
Thereβs some people who collected me that I caught on quickly. There are a few people that it took me a while to catch onto that really broke my heart. When times got tough they were nowhere to be seen.
So many people are part of collections and not a part of community And they donβt even know it. Over the years, I formed a good community and a good village, but I was not immune from being collected.
These are people who were not there for me in the ways that I was there for them or the ways that I needed. It feels good to clear the space for the people who have always loved me and for the good people coming in my life who will love me.
To know that you were nothing more than a human doll to them. A novelty. A toy. Something to bring out to impress other friends. Iβm glad that I have purged these people from my life.
Being collected by someone is so insidious. Especially when you have poured your whole heart into loving them and being a part of their village and bringing them into your intimate community.
I spent the past couple of years purging people from my life who were in the business of collecting people. It was a painful thing to admit that some of these folks were not my friends. I was just a part of their elite collection of humans.
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If you ever hear somebody beefing with me, please know that they are in it by themselves. Iβm over here working on art, praying with God, plotting & planning kink shit and enjoying my life with my folks. Iβm not thinking about them.
Thankful. Grateful. Blessed & Highly favored.
Iβm too busy healing, moving on and building towards my goals, dreams, special interests, and the community & village that does fuck with me.
This is one of these moments that Iβm so grateful for having a spicy brain. I literally do not have the brain space, the time or the interest to build a hate train around you.
While these peope end up living in turmoil and never truly process what happened with us. I gain peace and wisdom. They gain unrest and wasted time.
I find that this stance has led me to be able to move on successfully from these relationships while I live rent free in these other peopleβs heads for years. I end up being able to process our relationship, heal & move on.
The people who go for their bullshit are the exact people I donβt want in my life. If you believe negative things about me when my reputation proceeds me and you refuse to have a conversation with me, have at it and believe what you want. I donβt want you anywhere around me.
Itβs always interesting observing the people who try to build a hate train against me when we donβt fuck with each other. They always end up exposing their insecurities and projecting their wrongs onto me.
Itβs taking years for some folks to figure out that I donβt really mess with certain people. By the time people figure it out I have moved on thoroughly enjoying, loving & living my life.
Or #3 We just donβt vibe & thats ok. In any case, Iβm not wasting my time trying to rally people to not like this person anymore.
Iβm not big on building a hate train because I believe #1. People will eventually see this person for who they are or #2 The people around this person are the same type of people.
I do not go around, trying to ruin their friendships. I do not go around talking shit about folks to ruin their reputation. I am direct and I handle things in private. Iβm NEVER one to run from a hard conversation or confrontation.
One thing I donβt do is build a hate train against someone I no longer fuck with or like. I do not go around trying to get my people to stop liking them.
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