Jessica

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3 hours of sleep, night in A&E, 6.3 km ran, 18 hot cross buns baked (my daughter did the crossing 🥰), next: Freud course and then bed 🥱

‘Look mummy, sweeties! Can I have some?’ - excellent advertising in paediatric A&E 💀

Initially I thought being able to squat with my 93kg husband on my back meant that running had improved my leg strength.

In retrospect, after three sets of four reps, I think it’s just increased my ability to tolerate discomfort over long periods 😅

There’s a thing on running instagram where people are taking cream out on a run to make butter.

For the gym bros, there’s another way: you can make it very easily in a protein shaker 😅

(Found this out when trying to make whipped cream without my Kenwood Chef and overdoing it 🧈)

Anyone else been waiting all day for Handcuffed: Last Pair Standing?

I’m so so hoping the gay porn star and the prude make it through this difficult time 😅

Buying myself a little something to make the first day back to work a little more joyful 😊

Psychoanalysis x running (my two current hyperfixations)

Freud, quoting Rückert: ‘whatever we cannot achieve on the wing, we have to achieve at a patient limp … Scripture tells us clear enough, it was never a sin to limp.’ ❤️

TIL the anxiety grounding technique of ‘think of all the [x] objects’ (in this case, Minecraft mobs and biomes) is a great hack to get an 11 year old boy to slow down and gently jog to the finish line when all he wanted to do was start walking.

Chose the best day for our first parkrun 🍰

Surreal moment this morning, sitting in the car, having therapy in a back street outside the day centre when the Bishop of Gloucester walked past.

Parents’ evening discovery - my daughter apparently wrote an algorithm to make friends 😅

I’m not saying she is autistic, but there may be signs…

Finding out the random neon Nails Inc polish I got from Superdrug glows under a black light was the highlight of today 🌟

knitting, drawing, praying, endless cups of tea, and I’ve started watching anime. Oh and I got some loop earplugs for going to busier places. Hi from Ikea 😅

A snapshot of Friday stress pre and during the crisis team involvement.

I’ve never seen so much blue (rest) when I’m awake before - and I plan to continue having a similar amount when I’m back to work again.

What’s helped (apart from having no responsibilities) is the headspace app, colouring in..

My therapist would probably say I just want my dad to be proud of me.

Sadly for my conscious calves, my unconscious isn’t aware he’s dead and not coming back to high five me 🙃

Couch to 5k is going so well that I’m signing up for a 10k in May. WCGW? 😅

Fact 1. My GP recently prescribed me tranexamic acid for heavy periods.

Fact 2. My children wanted to host a ‘70s disco’ for grandma tonight.

Consequence: Grandma was surprised when I jumped up, saying I was just going to get my ‘acid tablets’. 😬

Tell me you have an eleven year old boy without telling me you have an eleven year old boy…

Maybe the cure all along was a ridiculously expensive jacket for the running outdoors that I don’t actually do 🙃

Took my first ADHD meds in a week. Spent the car ride translating three new Hungarian songs (🤷‍♀️) and booked an advanced Hungarian lesson for 9AM tomorrow morning.

Crisis team aren’t coming out today 🥳 celebrating by going to Bath. Which is probably a mistake - but man those Sally Lunn buns are 🤤

Looking forward to self soothing my way out of *checks paperwork* the current situation with Coronavirus… 🤨

… sometime next week. See you tomorrow!

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The NHS 💙

GP: take this SSRI

GP, the next week: why aren’t you taking this SSRI?

Nurse, the week after: yes take the SSRI.

… Wait. It’s been prescribed weirdly, maybe don’t take it, let me check, I’ll get back to you by 5PM

Nurse at 8PM: yeah don’t take that SSRI. You’ll get a medication review

So turns out the NHS can actually help.

Not like, when it happened, and they were all like ‘go to this website’. But now, when they’re like ‘we’ll come to your house every day’ and ‘we’ve got a place for you at this nice place for a little break from life’…

Better late than never, I guess 🙃

Safeguarding training question today:

You overhear a teacher telling a pupil ‘you’re just like your useless dad’ - is this…

A) emotional abuse

B) constructive feedback

C) a safeguarding misunderstanding

Answers on a postcard… 😅

A lot has got worse - but sometimes it’s tolerable. And today I got a new hairdryer ☺️

It’s dark outside.

Offering Compline this night for those who are listening to the hum of the house and feeling everything at once.

May God steady what rises, and grant you rest.

My mum: I don’t think your therapy is working, they’re meant to make you happier and focus on the positive things.

Also my mum: *tells me that Elon Musk is causing the storms in Spain by Starlink (?) from America because he doesn’t like the government*

But jeez, I’m the pessimist here.