Cougy

happy birthday elu!!

e33 feels like it moves the english major in me. it's a very beautifully constructed game. but there is something raw about the way xc3 does it that appeals to the soul, if i can borrow such an idea, and even if there are so many things it gets wrong.

i think fans of either should try both!

being much weaker of a game in terms of structure, narrative cohesion, gameplay, etc.

e33 feels much tighter and more refined in every sense. it's the better game from a technical standpoint. yet while i appreciate it a lot and love it as a game, it doesn't move me in nearly the same way

after having rewatched xc3 again in 2026 i think the thing i'm most fascinated by is how it feels in comparison with e33. two games that are so similar in subject matter but couldn't be more different in nature and feel. xc3's raw emotion is incredible and makes it more memorable to me despite

i'm so ready to be hardstuck 0lp or whatever it is they say nowadays

literally why did i censor the artist name if i didnt censor the album name. am i stupid

& to be clear i say this as someone who knows ill be out of a job and career path sooner than later. i think it's hard to explain or relate to unless you've actually been made to work with it directly, which... if you haven't, good for you, stay that way, but this is Working for a Company in 2026

honestly, prob the biggest thing that makes me sad is just that its not something i can have conversations about. you can infer why. it's frustrating, i have plenty of ethical hangups but also immense intellectual curiosity and some faint optimism that are just not considered acceptable to talk abt

2. this is going to come across as such a corporate shill post but i'm going down the ch*tg*t rabbit hole due to my job where it is an expected criteria now that we use it, and im struck by a lot of things.

i think it's really cool to grow up with an artist who's superficially similar to you in many ways and to see the parallels (and differences) in the progression, life experiences, etc. definitely grateful to have been following and inspired by this arc for as long as i have

im having 2 thoughts on this fine day which are completely unrelated so i'll split them up

1. new c*vetown album "Running With Scissors" dropped; as far as i'm concerned, this is basically an instant classic in the LGBT indie pop umbrella i love so much. im really happy to see how far he's come

My goal for this new year is to be even GAYER!

if there is an alternative for android and PC users that actually works and doesn't cost 1 bajillion dollars, please let me know!

lots of spotify discourse going around and im reminded with great annoyance about how i tried to switch to apple music like 2 years ago, only to have issues with account creation so severe that a support ticket spanning several months & multiple phone calls could not enable me to use the service

the snipe was crazy and a little bit false, i think i put it on sleep timer loop a couple times and it cheesed the spot off that lmaoooo

it's an embarrassing one this year to be sure, brutal cutoff right before i started listening to more recently lol

may this be the last time abel and Steven universe ever appear together in an image

totally get it! im just jaded and tired is all. they made us all make chatgpt accounts at my job like a month ago and ive definitely just internalized and accepted this is just how the world is going to be lol

it makes it impossible to have a meaningful conversation about what's in the actual video game when a sizable group of people go online and say they think the writing is shit, for example, but never actually played the game and are just playing their desired role in the surrounding social politics

but yeah, again really my bone to pick is less about having hangups like this (which are fair) and more about saying The Game is Bad Because [some argument about the game itself] when really you just don't like some other thing. it's a valid hangup but has nothing to do with the actual game

i do think that i generally want to continue playing video games moving forward, and i think that realistically if it's not true now it will be true within 5 years that all games are developed using some form of AI and it's just a matter of how well they conceal it

hiya! im aware, and you can dislike me for this, i just honestly don't care enough. imo the war is over and all i can ask is that devs make some demonstrated effort to ensure they're not stealing others' work

i don't fault you or others if that's your reason for not liking the game in the slightest

Jellybean, a true gamer as well as a real life cat, exhibiting her usual unfocused, distant, and somewhat oblivious appearance in front of a wireless controller.

there's a world where i go back to posting more if they implement private accounts and also implement more hours in my day. sorry for the quiet, i hope y'all are doing well!

life: i moved about a month ago from home to live with my partner. it's been very nice! i know ive been dead silent on social media and also havent caught up with too many people lately, so just wanted to put that out there

work is same old

books: i don't read anymore sadly
movies: i don't watch but it's probably sinners if we're being real unless im forgetting something

shoutouts also go out to I Love My Computer by Ninajirachi, which i tried to listen to when it came out, strongly disliked it, then tried again like a week or two ago and it clicked. its great stuff

I only listened to Frailty recently so I'm trying not to overreact but i also feel like it surely makes my top 10 all time, or at least lands in that ballpark. im a real sucker for a good slow burn, and my god man. i don't even know what to say.

winner for best thing i listened to for the first time in 2025: Frailty by Jane Remover

visceral listening experience, i think this album is a masterpiece and is basically why i like music even if it's borderline unlistenable at times. i have not listened to revengeseekerz but i eagerly await it

as for music, it was a pretty dogshit year in my lane admittedly, and i did less branching out and more replacement with other forms of media.

i also played lots of multiplayer things I enjoyed. I think the standouts are Arc Raiders, 2xko, and TFT. nothing i feel so passionately about that i want to rant about it, but i had a good time with these and i have high hopes for more fun in the future

Honkai: Star Rail

yeah, i know it's embarrassing and it's a gacha, etc. this is one of the best live service games ive ever played and im really glad i stuck it out through the bad opening of amphoreus to see the payoff. still has definite issues but call it a guilty pleasure