Uju

"bsky is dead!"
okay great this is my diary and none of you are supposed to be reading it anyway

Something always took them away. Death, when it came, was the only explanation. Absence from my life a mystery. I just had to move on. And on. And on. And on.

There have been so many other friendships over the years. Really intense relationships that I'd be part of, as her child. Daily visits, hanging out, developing this closeness, this attachment and then one day no more.

She never speaks of them. Is it the passage of time? Or is it just better to pack away the grief? When I mention them we'll talk briefly, and she'll change the subject. Don't linger.

I don't know why I'm remembering them now but fears of abandonment came up in my nightly #showerthoughts and these two wonderful people came to mind. Also, sadness for my mother who by 35 lost two of her closest friends. I can't fathom it.

Eric was my mum's friend who always made me laugh and spoiled me rotten and I remember him always listening avidly to everything I had to say and never losing patience with me. I was about six when he passed.

#showerthoughts
Lorna was my mum's friend who used to make this fruit punch slush with the frozen Minute Maid and her smile was like sunshine and I remember us going for a walk and this awesome fountain that shot rainbows everywhere. I was about three then, and about seven when she passed away.

You are loved.

Keep at it.

I'm levelling up in my procrastination powers because rather than do the social media posts I was supposed to work on this evening I finished the first draft of my short.

Can't lie, I'm kinda chuffed. And tired. But mostly chuffed. Script isn't great yet. But it's done. Shout outs to 2025

Hit up two thrift book stores in libraries around my city and found so many popular books, classics, and political science books surrounding topics I have a growing interest in. Support your local libraries! Buy second hand! You never know what treasures you’re going to find

#booksky #blackbooksky

I was literally just thinking about it this morning and laughing to myself! So funny, and warm and just great.

Welp

Doug Ford's face with a red circle and line through it and it says below all in caps : "just say no to Doug's"

There's still time to vote Ontario! Polls close at 9pm, it's time to get rid of the timbit

And it all was wonderful. Sometimes, you don't need to listen to the voices in your head.

a close up of a woman making a funny face while wearing a pink fur coat and earrings . Alt: Raven Symone is looking left and right while chewing gum. They are wearing a pink fur coat and earrings .

And even if tomorrow goes tits up (which it won't) and everyone hates me (which they won't) and I have a horrible day (which I won't), at least I did it. Right? Right?

Feeling like I don't know wtf I'm doing, while also slightly proud that I pushed through the very loud voices in my head telling me to just give up.

I'm directing a short film tomorrow. Eep.

Four tiny splitgill mushrooms grow from the underside of an upturned stick found in a snowy forest. Three mushrooms form a crowded group and their gills radiate across their caps like tiny bursting fireworks All photos by me

Here are some nice mushrooms

Payphones! Bring back payphones!

It's ok to ask for help/support from your community when you need it, and someone saying no to you doesn't mean you shouldn't ask

Buy them a new car and pay off their mortgage.

I'm working on a video about Doug Ford and the upcoming Ontario election, and keeping it concise is impossible because the list of shit he's destroyed and defunded just keeps going and going. Thinking of just filming five seconds of me staring into camera and setting a picture of him on fire instead

WRITING TIP: if you get stuck, try making the font really really big. This will remind you of being a baby, when you only knew twelve words and didn't know about death

I Gat Tha Magic CHICS, SwagAlee · BETTER THAN BEFORE VOL. II · Song · 2025

Anyway, I think that's why I've played this song everyday since he put it out. So... Yea! Listen to it please, and know that you're supporting independent creation and Black joy open.spotify.com/track/3esPIs...

Last year was not an option easy one for any of us, for a multitude of reasons. Of course it came with its triumphs but my God, were they hard-won.

I was overwhelmed witnessing the creation and the joy from creating by these two people I care deeply for, who just met!

And I'm like: what? When? They're like: today, over the past couple of hours.

So basically, in the five or so hours I was gone the two of them created a whole song. Beat, lyrics, everything.

They play it for me and I start bawling.

So I come home one night from attending the conference (courtesy of Black Women in Film) and they're like: hey we made a thing, come listen.

The past couple of years, as we know, have been really really tough for people in film. Like, really tough. My cousin is no exception. Anyway, he came up to meet with some people and stayed at mine and he and my partner really connected. He (cousin) is working on a music project as well

My cousin, who also has some music out and is an AWESOME DOP, came up from NJ for TIFF and he and my partner got on like a house on fire.