there once was a time when i wished to run around in my little fox ears and tail every day, doing normal activities.
the sad reality is, i cant do shit like that in a society where furries, but especially therians, are so heavily disgusted. why?
BABY, WOULD YOU PLEASE DO THE THINGS YOU SAID YOUD DO TO ME?
WONT YOU KISS ME ON THE MOUTH AND LOVE ME LIKE A SAILOR
AND WHEN YOU GET A TASTE, CAN YOU TELL MY WHATS MY FLAVOUR
I DONT BELIEVE IN GOD BUT I BELIEVE THAT YOURE MY SAVIOUR
the girl wished for everyone to be happy. it was a kind, simple wish. full of hope. but all it did was destroy individuality itself. because she couldn't define the meaning of happiness.
DANCE LITTLE LIAR
why wont anyone fucking help
everything hurts
i cant fucking do this anymore
i cant kill myself but i hope i die somehow
i just want to do good for you and for myself. why does every choice i have need to be one or the other? its not fair
i try man. i try to be normal but my brain is wired differently. i will always be honest with everyone including myself, i will not suppress my thoughts about you. it just feels like thats what people would rather me do, than whatever it is i do now
i make a friend i really like the company of,
we get close,
i basically fall in love with them because im ill,
i talk about my feelings,
eventually they leave. they always leave. noone enjoys having a friend like me, its "weird" and "gross" and they just want me to be Normal
something ive recently discovered is just how alienating having bpd is. noone understands the way i think or feel or need. instead i get blamed, i get abandoned, i get ignored because noone Gets it. theres no such thing as close friends for me anymore because the same cycle always repeats
everything takes so much time im so tired of waiting. i just want someone to look me in the eyes and tell me "everything youre doing is exactly what you should be doing and it is whats best for you" instead of me having to push my uncertainty away by using. more uncertainty.
im tired of not knowing
i keep holding out to the weekends because i sleep the schooldays away but then it comes around and i waste it all anyways so nothing happens and nothing gets done and i just spent 48 hours doing god knows what. im literally rotting away and i dont know how to stop
i am an unbelievably disgusting person whos never learned from her mistakes
what is the point in caring about anyone anymore
ive been sleeping my days away because being awake hurts so much. i dont know whst im doing wrong because noone istelling me and instead just Leave everyone just Leaves
the future is far from a reliable thing to hang onto. its one dm away from completely shattering.
they tell you not to hold onto the past but where fucking else sre you supposed to get that comfort again
nevermind i hope you rot in hell you lying manipulating piece of shit
rock bottom, lower than rock bottom. lower than that.
it never does get better
i miss him so much. every one in ten nightmares is a dream where i can hear him again
hi im charlotte . i will be posting a lot more personal stuff here like about my life, traumas, and feelings. if thats not your kinda thing i recommend you head back to my main account @charpurrr.dev
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