Makuus (Măkūs)

What, you mean I can’t use the RSVP chat for a local party as a channel to catch up with my friends?

Think of all the fun you can have on Supermarket Sweep?

I would trust nobody—and I mean nobody—to caress my well-shorn balls more than Winnie the Pooh…

The man half of the man and dog “Oh, You” meme.

…

A photograph of a colorful, adult diaper, still folded from the package, and laying on a bedsheet. A card is placed on top, which reads: “DISCLAIMER / This garment is for recreational purposes only. / The internal padding is designed for the comfort of the individual only and it should not be considered as personal protective equipment.”

Turns out I’ve been using both correctly and incorrectly this whole time… 😅

Yeah... 😅

I honestly did not have it anywhere in my bucket list to meet him. I tend not to put anyone on a pedestal, even those who were influential in my field. They were just men and women doing a job—they just happened to be great at it.

A little disappointing to now be studying algorithms and software architecture materials, find reference to Sir Tony Hoare—father of quicksort and the "billion-dollar mistake" that is null—and discover that he recently passed away.

Inevitable, but, gosh...

The video of that is wild…

A rendering of the control room for MU/TH/UR 6000, AKA "MOTHER", from the movie "Alien".

Welcome to your new RTO space.

(At least it's a private office... 😁)

I think the physically healthy is the best I can hope for. That’s the better outcome by far. 🫂

Anyway, in happier news, I am at seeing progress on my cardio. It’s not quite, but kinda getting back to where it was pre-COVID, when I was running a lot more.

It’s a great trend, no further qualifications required. 😁

I can reflect on and laugh at it a little bit, though. Someone from outside our little community would look at this like “WTF, man… Get a grip.”

And, in some respect, they’d be right. But, it’s something I still haven’t figured out how to get over. 🤷🏻‍♂️

I’m have no illusions I will never be his size, ever. In a similar vein, I’m now old. And, I *know* it’s vain.

But, god, it hurt so much that the only difference at the time—I’m sure my bitterness afterward became a second difference—was our relative size.

I want that wound to finally heal.

I guess also… I just want an ounce of the positive treatment that small, cute cubs get.

I once had a friend who—probably unknowingly—inserted himself between me and any caretaker sort who showed any interest. And it’s been eating away at me since before our friendship fell apart…

I deserve to have a marathon time under 7 hours. I deserve better-fitting clothes and diapers. I deserve good sleep and as little pain as possible—given my age.

I don’t have work as an excuse right now—outside of studying for 6+ hours a day. If I can’t work toward those goals now, then when?

I’m really trying…

I’ve been a big boy all my life. Just shit genetics, crappy childhood, bullshit stressful jobs, and a whole lot depression and doing the bare minimum to take care of myself.

Best I’ve done is crack out 4 marathons—barely. Lightest I’ve been in 35 years is 190.

I deserve better…

…Not the *smartest* thing to do before a ski trip. 😅

But, at least I’ve got four days before hitting the slopes. I’ll be sure to take it easy between then and now.

Finally took the FTP test on Peloton. I had been *kinda* dreading it, as I recall a friend saying how hellish he found it.

But, I realized that not having taken it locks off a good deal of programming that would be beneficial to my health journey.

So, yeah… My cardio held up but my legs are done…

🫂 Hang in there, my love…

I’m pretty sure I’m just in it for the pictures anyway…

Worth reading WoF as a young dragon?

Happy to see a fur con take a stand against someone spreading hate and engaging in harassment. My opinion of the con has gone measurably up.

And, I hope it acts as a model for other cons: You don’t *need* these people’s money or their attendance. It will only serve to drive good folk away.

Very… uh… space efficient.

I lament how even the still-passionate software people—including me—are being driven to blindly incorporate AI—up to and including replacing the act of writing code.

My company had a yearly goal to use AI to speed up development along those lines. Any guesses on how effective that goal was? 😁

…if only it were more socially-acceptable… 😅

Guess, if I get back to an office, I’ll just keep biting the shit out of my hands… 🤷🏻‍♂️

Rather than continue the fingers/hand/mouth interactions that characterize a good deal of my focus fidgeting—as I’m deeply involved in study these days—I’ve switched to a pacifier, and, gosh, wouldn’t you know that it’s an improvement? 😁

If there’s cake, I’m there!

Sorry I scared everyone away… 😅

And I thought Luckys were expensive…

Need

Your secret’s safe with me… 😁

(Also, I forgot you were driving an EV.)