i can not understand what is causing us to split so much. is it alters coming out of dormancy? are we under too much stress, is it a traumaversary? why are so many of them children/regressors with similar fears and mental instability? 🍛
Actually, it really does... Thank you so much. How did you move past it if you don't mind me asking?
I feel like I'm not allowed to be near or around anyone. I hate that I make him feel guilty for just wanting to do what makes him happy. I wanted to die on the spot... He's tried so hard to find something for the two of us to do and I just don't have the drive to do anything. 🔎🌧🦋
I wonder if Jay is Ko's new FP. They don't even talk to us??? How does that even work?
It feels like he wants to crash out anytime they seem more interested in talking to/calling anyone else. They're all friends in the server but he makes it seem like a competition. 🔎🌧🦋
We're watching this movie for class and it's meant to be a comedy but I think the fact that we have an ED just... makes this painful to watch and hard to sit through. It's only been 3 minutes.. Maybe it's just my first impression... 🔎🍂
I’m in the most f*ckable time of my life and the only thing f*cking me is my mental illness
why do i feel like im not allowed to be alive??? like i can't be myself or have good things or have fun or i need to be perfect or whatever? why cant i just be a person and live? why isnt that enough for me? 🗡⛓️
have you ever survived a suicide attempt? embarrassing as fuck.
i wanna eat so much but it doesnt fit into my budget... ⛓️🌊
dami's really trying to convert me to babyism (agere) when so many in the sys already regress 😭 i never woulda considered me a regressor but... anythings possible ⛓️🌊
from the second i woke up its been hit after hit... i cant take anymore heartbreaks or disappointments today... ⛓️
when you've been abused all your life so you want more and dream about more and read stories about more and
i want to cry my eyes out... i wish i knew i made things more difficult before. i wouldnt have ever asked to begin with.. ⛓️
i just wanna play splatoon... i dont want to join this class !! i hate this class with everything in my being and its 2 1/2 hours long!! WHY!!! ⛓️
do you think its possible to make a groupchat with everyone? that way we all have our own friend group! /nf
you could never do wrong bestie ♡ but no i was fr thinking abt it, i just dont wanna kill off the last few braincells i have 😭
not sure if drinking is a good idea after getting high last night... so i guess ill wait 💔⛓️
YAY!! where do you prefered to be dmed? ^0^
i want a cheeseburger but it makes me feel fat to try & make one...
is it ame? idk...
AHHHH I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH... HE SENT ME A VOICE MESSAGE !!!! 🥺🥺🥺
i hate that they're our fp more than anything it literally kills us that we dont get as much attention from them as we want and i almost feel like we dont mean anything to them but they swear that we do even tho we dont see it... i cant stand when they interact w anyone else . you're MY friend!!
its so blurry and thats so frustrating... i swore shu was here last night with dazai in co and now i dont know who's here... maybe ame? all i know is that im so sleepy and dreading this class
I've never felt so welcome and safe in a community like the jirai one... its so surreal that so many people struggle with what i do and how i do and we truly get how each other feel esp when many jirais have bpd as well and understand the day to day distress that comes w it.
I too want more friends... i wish we knew each other irl and we could hang out! im more than happy to be your friend - im 21 but i feel like I've been wasting my life being afraid of people and this year im hoping to make a change. you are so capable and i know that you'll make amazing friends!
would we mean anything to them if she were still alive? its such a fucked up thought to have... but...
i've been playing splatoon since the first game and never knew this... we should play sometime if you play splat3!!
i feel so anxious and unsteady, i hate the way we look, and i'm exhausted but unable to sleep, and we're all so switchy... we had flashbacks earlier, and it's all so overwhelming... i can't deal with anything right now,, i'm gonna take melatonin and draw til i fall asleep... 🪻🐚
