also, is the feminine voice in neoneon meant to represent him, or is it meant to represent hinako? much to think about here... i suppose i'll see on wednesday GRAAAH IM SO SCAREDDD
i think it's interesting that when he looks through the champagne glass in cat, the reflection of himself with the apple head is replacing hinako's reflection...
"but i still can't help but dream" while he's looking at himself through the glass
i want to rewatch the mvs with that theory in mind... and akka has said to pay attention to the lights in some sections of half... hm
the more i think about it, the more kazui being trans or gnc in some way seems plausible... was discussing this in a milgram server but we were talking about what the colors in half and cat could mean & decided on pink -> femininity, blue -> masculinity, yellow -> queerness & being in-between
"i'm larping as homophobic" well i can't tell how much of it is a larp and that's a problem. if you don't have anything nice to say about trans people it's better if you shut your mouth entirely.
i know she has issues. being queer and going to my school isn't easy at all, and she's also a super devout catholic, so i'm sure it's even more difficult for her, but i don't want to be the one bearing the brunt of it for her. i don't want her to only support me behind closed doors. come on
i get that my class is transphobic as shit but i can hear her bro. i'm right here and you know i'm trans. it's like. do you not take me seriously? do you think i'm faking? do you only call me a guy because you feel bad? are you only going to be nice behind closed doors? it's so infuriating...
this one irl friend after telling me she loves trans people dearly and confiding in me about being queer only to say shit like "chromosomes are what makes you a man or a woman" or "i think 10% of the population says they're gay, but i think only 3% really mean it" when im in class w her
i mean listen i do art for my own fulfillment first and foremost but i did spend 12 hours on that piece (point and laugh... i am a very slow artist and i was trying out a lot of new things with the rendering) and i do want that effort to be acknowledged just a little...
i'm kinda mad that i posted the sketch for my most recent piece. it's the most liked post on my main account. now that the hype for the song has died down there's no way the rendered version is gonna get the same amount of traction. maaaan
im trying to be nicer to myself but its very very difficult when i am being spoonfed shit like this
some part of me wants to come out to someone who will say the vilest shit about me so that i will be motivated to stay in the closet forever
"if you're religious it's ok to misgender people"
we're being taught anti-trans rhetoric in my catholic ethics class and im just. kind of (very) upset rn
takuya yamanaka is a guy who makes very good characters but sometimes he has no idea what to do with them so he just pulls shit out of his ass
im sensing a hyperfixation on the horizon and i dont like it lmao
yuri
i feel so disgusting right now if worms were crawling on my skin it would feel like this
right now i dont feel gay or straight or bisexual but a secret fourth thing (disgusting)
i really do try to be happy but my depression decided to get worse, my antidepressants aren't doing shit, and i'm so fucking miserable. it's the worst it's been in a while. i really need help and i am too scared to ask
understandably!! i have no words but if i could articulate myself i'd be very harsh
oh wait is this about that fuckass movie. 😭😭 god i wanted to forget abt that so bad and now im remembering
whats this abt im out of the loop /gen
the transgender kazui agenda is alive and well
you ever stay up at night thinking of how disgusting of a person you are to the point it makes you nauseous. no. just me
sometimes i feel like an absolutely disgusting person and i get the urge to claw at something for no reason
anyone who dismisses shidou's actual medical malpractice is going on the shit list btw
i'm scared to live here but i can't leave. they're in my city. my friends' neighborhoods have been raided. it's hell out here
he used to be my favorite... i don't like enstars anymore but i loved him sooo much he was my favorite ever for a year. i even have a nazuna nui
i miss nazuna
oomf keeps referring to me as having "bisexual tendencies" and i find this really really funny
