Nelieliel

Rough- roooough week
A birth and a death
Processing and trying to not let my avoidance rear its ugly ugly head and dissappear from everything while using work as a coping mechanism.

Enough moping- i just had lunch and drank water and decided ill bitch about this later, there are other things far more deserving of my attention

Really need to stop attaching myself to emotionally immature people and making excuses for them when their behavior irritates me

Mustering up the strength to do this workout. My heart tracker keeps dying on me but fuck it we ball

Shoulder and neck feel tender from a brutal massage. I want to go back so bad

Every once in a while I gotta let my mind spiral and allow myself to freak out about things that havent happened yet so that when they DO happen, I can be prepared and feel absolutely nothing about it at all.

Got out if bed for drinks with drinks with friend and now onto getting our nails done but all im thinking about is going back to bed and napping with my cats 💔

Oughhhhhh I don't want tooo (workout)
I don't wannaaaaaaaaa (workout)
I DON'T WANNAAAAAAAAA (workout)

Paid off two credit cards i am indeed mighty

Going through my finances today and working out a plan to be completely debt free. Then my car started making strange noises 😳 😐

(Big sigh)
Yeah
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I can spend all day thinking of Madatobi and spew blurbs but to connect them?? Think of a summary? A title?? Fuck off

*Incoherent screaming*

Excitement gone- now there is only rage

Feeling excited again

Was excited to workout but then my period came and slapped that motivation right out of me 😩

Tobirama!!

#tobirama #senjutobirama

The hold cheese with crackers and grapes has over me would invent a new type of worship should anyone be brave enough to behold it

Sometimes I feel like I'm just wasting my time. And then I look back at where I was not even 3 years ago and I get hopeful again despite the daunting future

Two people called me cute yesterday.
Today someone else called me cute.
What is happening

There is nothing more satisfying to me than taking off my shirt and bra and just lounging in bed in my boxers with my tits out

I should get a massage someday

Good morning world I drank my water, took my vitamins and brushed my teeth and did my skin care routine- we are truly living

Would be so nice if my mother could learn how to properly regulate her emotions rather than immediately putting me down and blaming me ✨️

*Incoherent scream*

Week 3 of Nel sticking to a skin care routine
I am mighty ✨️

A quick portrait of Zenos yae Galvus from FFXIV rendered in a loose sketchy style

Viera WoL from FFXIV rendered in a loose sketchy style, given a bit more depth with a low opacity gray marker brush.

‼️OPEN COMMS FOR EMERGENCY COMPUTER REPAIRS‼️

The CPU fan and two other fans inside of my desktop have failed/are actively failing so I'm opening Pay What You Want Portraits on my Ko-fi, starting at $10

Reposts are appreciated 😓

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Looking up tattoo shops

What I wouldn't give for a nap right now