anyway. shitshow collab. i dislike the game. i dont think i’ll play that game ever again lol
maybe i gotta put my foot down and ask other collaborators about collabs. this shouldve been a group chat thing.
understandably I FELT. because these ppl started without me and i felt really awkward and left out. she was unaware about us starting before she got home, even tho that was the plan.
fourth person finds out we started by the time she was supposed to join, and ultimately she left because we started without her.
was she not informed about that? i thought that was the plan, but instead this collab ended super early.
come time for the collab. extra people showed up? i wasnt aware about that and neither was my partner. i had technical difficulties and instead of waiting on me, they all started. i was on brb for 25 mins because they continued to play even when i was ready.
the last stream was a shitshow of a collab. the person who organized it said, me, them and my partner would start, and the fourth person would join after work.
that’s what was understood
might have to either severely limit collabs or not do them at all
or do streamers have like a blacklist on collabs?
i had a lot of fun tonight
im happy to see my partner hanging out with friends or friends of friends.
im happy he gets to hang out with other people. it truly means a lot, especially since he has his friends who arent so nice to me. 😔
i have the worst luck with collabs
every time im in one, it just gets awkward. idk.
it feels like im only involved bc of him but other than that, i just dont get a lot with a lot of people.
i do kinda miss the lonesomeness. sometimes. it does get comforting to be alone …..
i think tomorrow i’ll just appear offline and do art aaaaaa.
if i “sleep through” a collab, then yeah. but least they can hang out with my partner. its not like they want me around tbh.
i feel like im the third wheel. dont you just enjoy having a partner everyone wants to be around with?
reiterating the fact that people only hang out with me bc they wanna hang out with my bf and ONLY HIM. i think i’ll try and make tomorrow either short or act super late / “sleep in”, i think that includes me to be “offline” tomorrow.
tempted.
dude i’m actually not looking forward to the collab tomorrow simply because the last time i hung out with those people, i was left out pretty much.
he tries hard to be friendly with ppl im around with or my friends’ friends.
i wish his friends were the same but theyre just terrible. not all of his friends, but most of them are
i think its sweet that a lot of /my/ friends want to hang out with my partner.
he needs to definitely keep hanging out with them, because HIS friends are mean and terrible.
this was on twitter btw.
ok but there’s some stuff people dont need to say. thats a “keep it to yourself buddy”
me: “i appreciate you having me in this”
the reply from a follower: “I immediately read "horny", I'm like, well that's an interesting reaction to this.”
…. you didnt need to respond? you couldve just not said anything.
i miss kissing my boyfriend 😔
no huge hate to talarico but i dont see texas getting rid of mister hot wheels …..
political
but WILD that jasmine lost to a cishet white guy. granted, their views are VERY similar but talarico afaik only has experience as a middle school teacher whereas jasmine has YEARS of political work under her belt.
but you know. ONLY AS A CISHET WHITE MAN you just have the advantage
the only person that really shows up, interacts, and checks up on me when i abruptly end is asleep 😭
that might be my last solo stream tbh.
last solo gaming stream. nobody really shows up for those.
i have barely heard from him for the past few days, with reason of course. but i miss his company. i miss his voice. i miss talking to him. but i’m trying. he’s grieving his grandmother right now, simultaneously i’m worried about what his future will be.
my friend’s visiting her partner and all. it makes me miss mine.
i miss him.
he’ll visit soon. two months
probably for two weeks but he’s hinting on wanting to stay longer. i’ll get the plane tickets eventually.
one of my claimed adopts hasnt had any confirmation from the person for a week. no sign of response. payment? i dont think i’ll see a payment
thats why i dont do holds, or pre claims, nor ask for color requests. because stuff like this happens more often than it should
“you should hire your mods back”
dude NONE of them ever show up in my streams so whats the point lmao
sometimes gaming with others means ur havin a misunderstanding and sense others getting upset, so you just wanna exit
which is what i did. i upset the person, the tone made me think, wellp, they didnt have fun. i guess i’ll go
my friend pretty much told me i should keep streaming. at least my friends believe in me. because i dont believe in me.
i literally just talked about this. man. it just demotivates me that chat just doesnt stick when i play games
they stick when i do art. i should just stick to my fucking LANE.
i’ll be straight up
ive had previous twitch mods offer their roles as mods back, but there’s no way i’ll put anyone back as a mod. i dont really need em and when I did, they were ALL absent. my mods never showed up in my chat.
there really isnt a reason to mod anyone.
i got no friends who spontaneously message me about “lizzie wanna hang out?”
its usually while i stream
and then when they leave, everyone leaves with them.
