Going to ้ๅบ tomorrow and two things are certain
1) I will stand outside the train building and watch the train go inside
2) I will take a train ride just to go inside a building
#chongqing #china #tourist
Brunette woman is holding a medium sized brown poodle type dog above her head with the dogs paws resting on her head and the dog is chilling while looking like itโs smiling
A brown ginger coloured cavapoo dog with short hair is sitting on an umbrella stand outside a seating area of a cafe looking off to the left out of the view of the camera.
Having a dog is wild because nearly 3 years later I sometimes remember that I have a small four legged creature who lives in my house with me.
This feeling is exasperated living abroad where it really is the best friends who are still besties even with sporadic and all or nothing communication on my end of thingsโฆ but thereโs no shame or guilt attached to it
Not sure if this is a #neurodivergent thing but i struggle with the โfriendโ stage.
Acquaintances - low pressure as thereโs not that many expectations.
Best friends - know my quirks and understand how I communicate.
Friends - not fully comfortable yet and feel a lot of internal pressure.
I struggle with this so much I can never see what Ive accomplished only what I havenโt achieved or want to achieve ๐ญ
It's never even occurred to me that people might think that we constantly talk about ADHD/autism just for attention. Like... if you discovered an explanation for everything you are and why you've struggled your whole life, why would you stop talking about it
The weird thing about ADHD is that my brain often doesnโt feel like โme.โ
Instead, itโs this obstacle between the thoughts I have and the actions I take.
So I have to convince it to do the things that โIโ want to do, but it can (and often does) refuse my requests.
A womanโs hand holds up a fried bun style pancake with a number of skyscrapers in the background out of focus so itโs just a blur of lights
Sometimes itโs good to sit and look up - remind myself that I live in a megacity of over 20 million people. Fried bun optional but recommended.
My coolness peaked here at age 3 and itโs all been downhill since.
A Chinese student in a classroom with their face blurred presenting their A3 poster project on Ireland and Newgrange.
Imagine telling the fellas who built Newgrange that some Chinese kids in Beijing would be doing a project on it 5,200 years later.
Donโt get me wrong, I am so grateful for the Beijing heating being turned on and I realise itโs a privilege to have. Butโฆ Iโm in sensory hell, everything is too hot I canโt sleep, I canโt get comfortable and I canโt adjust the temperature. This is it until February or March.
Deleted Twitter before it even became X and truly just missed having a place to share whatever random thought that enters my head, so here I am.
