The Roo After Dark

Is it strange if I can't recall making the last few posts to this account?

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All I want is to feel comfortable even if it's just myself by myself. What places make good safe torso toys? Or strokers? Or sleeves? Because I'll take anything right now just to distract myself by any means.

It would be foolish of me, a dumb idea... The wrong reasons... But I nearly don't care any more. I'll just get a fuck toy, anything and fuck myself happy, even if I know that won't help anything. I just... I don't know how to deal with these emotions. Sex is not a solution, but is still something.

Yet I'm just... still here... even when every inch of me wants otherwise. saying I'm tired is just old news now. But I don't know how much longer that will keep myself from erasing myself.

Honestly since my dad past, I've felt very angry and frustrated. I've been slapped onto 2 new anti depression meds. and the side effects are really pushing on me. I should be allowed to enjoy things, or even find happiness in sharing things and events with others. Helping Others.

I'm just tired now, of seeing friends getting hurt and there is nothing I can do about it. Or I'm ghosted or I'm treated like I'm always "Too innocent" I'm tired and I can't even keep up my many layers of masks. Even if it means scarring everyone away, at least I will know why.

And honestly I'm tired of the fact I can't step up or when I do others just wave it off. The rule of boundaries, I am breaking a boundary being depressed and talking about anything even slightly sexual. But it's not a boundary break when others drop their emotional and sexual interests to me.

It might not be in my cards but honestly... I might just end up getting either a new toy for myself or like a half torso toy just to have something I can hug at night. I know this might seem weird but over the last few months I've just felt worse and worse in my social circles.

The worst feeling is waking up and feeling so pent up and sensitive, but you have no urge to deal with it so it's like sitting with an itch I refuse to scratch.

Hell... I may even get a second toy that's something that can let me experiment a bit.

I was already thinking I need to get a new toy for myself... didn't realize it will need to combat whatever side effect this is. Let alone the cost now a days and safety points to keep in mind. At least with only my mom and nephew in the house, I feel safer keeping something like that now.

It's not from piss... Why is it that things like antibiotic and now mental health drugs keep spiking my sexual things... What's worse is I'm not feeling horny, it's just... body is like "cum now" me feeling confused and pressure building up like when I have an orgasm... ugh...

To expand on this from my more NSFW space: The few side effects seem to be increased sweating/abnormal increase in body heat feelings, Increased hyper like activates beyond my norm. And the urge just to have orgasms. Like not actually masturbation, just suddenly I fee pressure down there and...

woo, my at home Vasectomy-Fertility kit was done and it's negative. I'm still snipped!

The urge to want to cuddle someone is clashing hard with my touch aversion...

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The Updated Aoi Chudas Touch Raffle Announcement! The new Mega Raichu Y and X forms are bursting into the scene from where Aoi was perched previously. The words "Chudas Touch" have been also blown to the sides from the entrance. Aoi is blown to the left with a very shocked appearance at their sudden entrance. "Chuus who you want to be" "All it takes is one touch" still remains below the two new Chu forms. There's a set of the Pikachu evolution line underneath, with a Pikachu looking shocked, Pichu appearing pleased, Raichu concerned and a dizzy looking Alolan Raichu.

A Chudas Touch Raffle post that's actually on time? Yeah, I got nothing for that x3 I've been busy getting stream stuff set back up, and so I guess I'm on a roll x3

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Fuck it. What good strokers/sleeves for dicks are out there that are of safe materials and good quality? Torsos could also work but I need to make sure they are of safe material and in a price range I can do (torsos would also be helpful if it's just something I can hug at night so it has other use

Did I ever post this here?

If not I am now.

Personal Work / "Happy Nude Deer 2026."

Haha funny "Happy New Year" pun GO.
I finished and posted this right on New Years on my Telegram channel but I had no way of posting em here in time.

Regardless, enjoy. Here hoping I can draw more funny animals doing more funny things this year!

Correction, I think I know what has caused some of my hyper horny feelings the past week... I've been taking my meds AND using HBP DayQuil and I'm guessing that is what is causing the added energy feelings and horniness. Heh, if only I had a better outlet for it. I really should look into a toy.

Nude caribou girl lying on her back in the grass

Since it's just about time for Nude Deers, lemmie share this nude version of an older piece of Keira that I never posted here! ^^

#FurryArt #KeiraArt

6. Hmmmm..... Sex is nice, masturbation is nice, either or if I'm feeling able for it.

5. I would not be apposed to it as long as I trust all involved and there is a lot of prep time building up to it so I know my comfort and trust will be respected. Gender does not need to matter as much as long as we are all on the same page.

4. I flinch easily and I'm highly ticklish. But I guess I enjoy touches on my nipples, the underside of my dick, and head scratches.

3. Teasing, Taunting, Touch. Sometimes dirty talk goes over my head. So you likely need other elements to get me to hook in.

2. Even though I have issues with my nose and being able to smell things, Smell and Taste are some of the most easy things to turn me off. Problem is I feel my own body has these same issues so I don't have confidence with others enjoying me.

1. The Biggest turn on oddly enough is simply kindness and confidence with doing anything with a partner. I have trust issues, I have experience issues. Helping lift me up in those areas will help me make sure I'm doing my best for you.

She wanted a snack