— catastrom crusher

not at all

why did i even stop listening to it when it saved my ass so many times

once again, it turns out my paranoia is actually true. i'm a fucking idiot for ever doubting it

the urge to slap

Never trust anyone. No matter how close they are to you. All of them will lie to you and hurt you. All of them will betray you.

Losing my fucking mind. Nothing worse than your paranoia coming true. I want to punch a fucking wall.

i need everyone everywhere to value me and cherish me and appreciate me forever

i need to stay strong and i need to take better care of myself

i need purpose

i have so many characters that i both kin and also desire carnally

so many.

i love being a faggot

cant sleep and this shit is running through my head

im winning oomf... im winning

i wanna hold her while we sleep
sleeping together in call isn't enough

it's gonna be the most magical week of my life

exactly 1 month until she's here... sfbhjkknjnbjbjnkkn

i just had 2 randoms follow me

taps the sign

thats enough vulnerability for one night

no wonder i'm a walking ball of fear and doom and anxiety 24/7

i'm so glad i'm out of there.

my dad would beat me with a police baton when i was a child of single digit age! he would twist my limbs and choke me whenever i did anything he didn't like! i wanna go on a walk? too bad! he doesn't want that so i get my eardrums ruptured from screaming! and beaten until i can't walk! and no food!

i only ever speak the truth 🙂‍↕️

when you grow up in a country where being even slightly queer means you will be ridiculed and threatened by everyone, beaten up, potentially murdered, and you've been queer since childhood so you had to repress it.

collecting disorders like they're pokemon but that's what happens when you grow up with a family that threatens to kill you over the smallest things.

learning that i may have ocd and how you can trace most of my struggles to it has been. a lot.

ocd is ruining my life

If only I could see you again

#超かぐや姫

happily reunited #超かぐや姫 #cosmicprincesskaguya

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im not quitting but, fuck, i really wish i had a reason to play the game beyond capping my weekly tomes and logging in for raid.