(7) harder to be focused and mentally stable at school and after school care, and itโs gonna be hard not to get tired and grumpy and snap at the kids or my coworkers, or have a _fucking mental breakdown_
But I canโt really afford to bc if I take a day off work thatโs like $250 a day gone so ๐ค fuckme
(6)
Iโm
Honestly not sure how long I can keep doing thisโฆ if he doesnโt find a job within the next month weโre pretty much fucked, and heโs gonna end up wracking up more debt against me and honestly I might just fuckin end it cause I canโt keep doing this shit. Which is gonna make life so much
(5) or is fuckin button smashing his computer keyboard playing LoL or YELLING at his computer
(4)
- Iโve been having trouble sleeping because damian hasnโt been working so he hasnโt been tired enough at night to come to bed, so he stays up until either 4am ish or until 6:30 when I wake up. And I find it hard to sleep when heโs not in the bed, especially when I know he might come sleep later
(3)
- Iโm up at 5.20am writing this (but was awake at 4:30) because damian was fuckin yelling at his computer playing stupidass league of legends like a weeb. So I decided to get up and do the dishwasher and clean the bench like he shouldโve done during the day ๐ซ ๐ฅด
(2)
- Iโve finally started working at the new afterschool care programme, pretty much from 2.25 to 5.45 each evening, which eventually equates to me working a 40-44 hour week including schoolwork hours. Great for the money bc damian isnโt earning atm, but tiring and stressful for me ๐ซ
(1) Rundown of recent events: ๐ซ
- Damian resigned from his job bc of workplace bullying, got paid out 5 weeks pay, but now has no job and itโs fucking hard to find one atm because every man and his dog from overseas are filling up the spots in workplace atm which leaves none for regular NZers
I definitely feel a lot happier in our new house though since we moved in December. Things are going nicely!
We just need to start exercising, eating healthy, save more money, find Damian another job he doesnโt hate, and get him a car
Iโm sad bc my mum told me again that she thinks itโs seriously time to leave damian because he โhasnโt improved in the last 6 months that you gave him to get his shit togetherโ and is useless and โsapping me dryโ of my money. Iโm also sad bc sheโs not entire wrong ๐ฅฒ๐๐ but I donโt wanna
Would be interesting to see how many notes would be in a sad jar too
Or get a bigger jar, and pick one colour for good stuff, one colour for not so good stuff
Iโve been using this self-care app called Finch that helps me achieve tasks and itโs fun too bc you get stones to buy cute clothes and stuff for your room!
If you have Finch, you should add me! My friend code is 4KHWN6T1N8
(2) but then fuckin ๐โs bitch gf said โoh we can just drop him home bc he lives round the corner from us,โ when I also live round the corner from him??? And heโd already organised to go with me?? But he thought Damo might not drop him at his place so heโd have to walk, so he went with them instead
Legit about to lose my goddamn mind in this class today with this substitute teacher
A peaceful green doodle. Six shrimps on a mossball. All smiling.
Mossball #shyshrimp
๐ข - my bf Damian/Damo
I play magic the gathering and warhammer 40k RPG with these nerds:
๐พ - Alex, oldest triplet
โ๏ธ - William, middle triplet
๐ซ - Orion, youngest triplet
๐ - Manaaki
I donโt like that you canโt soft block people, and if you block them in general they still show up on your follower number ๐
good morning neighbour โ
An artwork depicting two women in a half embrace. One of them has brown skin and pale blue hair, wearing a moon shaped hair ornament. The other has pale skin and long blue hair shaped like rippling waves, the colors ranging from pale to dark blues. The background is dark blue with sprays of sea foam and stars.
the moon and the waves ๐๐
There are many different types of pumpkin and squash on a dark background. They all come in different shapes and colors. Everyone is smiling, but some Halloween-related pumpkins have creepy mouth shapes.
Pumpkin and squash
Digital painting of a young black woman lying on a rug in what looks like a bedroom. The style of the room and the items around her suggest the aesthetics of the 1970s, specifically in the realm of bright colors. The woman is closing her eyes and has her chin in her hands. It looks like sheโs been scrapbooking. A page in front of her has โDISCO NIGHTโ written on it. Scattered around are other pages that suggest the presence of other friends, as well as articles that mention Zeus or The Muses. Also around her are lots of craft supplies and multiple records, most of them small LPs. The woman has a rainbow headband. The floor beneath the rug is wooden and a warm late afternoon light is coming through an unseen window.
iris + her records
an artwork of a woman wearing a witch hat and bodysuit with ocean wave pattern. Her bodysuit has a long tail with sparkles. She also wears thigh high boots with wave patterns.
๐ the wave witch ๐
scarlet garden longline linen cardigan โถ coming soon for presale!
#indieapparel #indiedesigner
#baldursgate3
An illustration of a blue glaucus, a blue and silvery gray sea slug with finger/wing-like appendages that branch out. It is illustrated on a light blue background.
Invertober Day 14 - Blue Glaucus ๐ง#Invertober #Invertober2023
Gravity falls in my style #pixelart
Sharing music is a love language
a botanical print featuring mushrooms that grow in fairy formations. it has a dark green background and a gold decorative frame. it features 11 different species of fungi, their names are listed at the bottom. there are gold stars scattered across the image.
fairy ring fungi ๐ these mushrooms are species that grow in circle or ring formations in nature, creating fairy rings. in folklore if you stumble across a fairy ring you may just be whisked away by the fae ๐ซ
A digital image made out of cutouts showing various paper textures. Text on the top says "free paper textures".
Reposting my FREE paper texture pack on here!
It contains 16 high res files (scans of my art paper/sketchbooks) and can be downloaded from my kofi!
โจ ko-fi.com/s/acff7a1bd2 โจ
They're all free to use in both personal and commercial projects ๐
We got this ๐ซถ๐ผ
