Roe's Garden

Some gay art and more notes on these two (mostly Yuri), because I can't keep a secret about my ocs to save my life

look at this again but not as a shitty transparent png

bonus: the next morning! ✨

My face was never super masc my hips were pretty big to start. Idk, I just feel blessed in a sense. I'm still not 100% sure I'm reallyy gonna be able to present fem in a public setting but it at least feels "feasible".

All things considered I guess I'm really lucky that my puberty didn't totally mess my body up. Really the worst was the facial hair but that's all but gone now.

My mum (not an ally) told me my cat paw socks were cute. 1/2

#corrosart #furry #roe #furryart #truesona

Garlic The Creature Lady 🧄

So I just accept thats my lot in life. I don't get to have a home, I don't get to have a fulfilling relationship with someone and the most I can hope for is to make friends with someone that enjoys my company. So I'd like if I stopped being told it's my fault I can't do those other things.

Idk I get it I'm not actually that valuable to anyone in the grand scheme of things. I'm at any given time 1 really ugly arguement away from losing people I consider my closest friends and I don't think it's ever going to be different. I think I don't have the right mindset for dating either.

Its more she doesnt understand I do not have any plans to have a "life partner" or marry, or have kids ( dunno if I even can anymore). I just want to exist as I am and when that stops working idk. Maybe I retire then.

Love my friends, them and art are the only things I love in this life. So take those away from me and yeah I'll be miserable what a huge surprise.

- and she thinks that by just ignoring the reality that surrounds us that I'll somehow be better off? Idk at least my current trajectory gives me some happiness now so that at the very least I'll feel like my life was in fact worthwhile. That existing wasn't wasted on me. Thats all I can ask for.

Like I know she's getting at the idea that I'm walking down a bad and destructive path in the long run but there's nothing I can do about it. One day I'm gonna be old, the world will be crueler, I will be unable to care for myself and I probably won't survive. I live with that knowledge -

- like what do you want me to tell you? It's kind of an obvious answer if you ask me "erm what if you were old and all your friends lost interest in you and you had nothing and couldn't care for yourself anymore". Probably not be in a good spot! Like idk what did cavemen split from the tribe do?

Also idk anytime I'm around my mum and she's trying to put ideas in my head about how one day my friends will all have moved on and I'll have to figure out what I'll have for myself like. Idk, nothing? I don't have anything outside my friends -

The good ones are invisible and are never victimised wheras every victim deserved it after the fact. Doesn't matter if they even are a minority as long as they were killed by my guy they had it coming.

Anyway no real society can exist with people who think like this. Its them or us.

Like idkk pre-hrt my near future looked pretty certain and not in a good way.

I think at 6ish months I can now say like, hrt is one of the best things I've ever had as far as my self esteme, my sense of self worth etc. I don't think it's fixed my root fundamental problems but I care enough to at least try to resolve those issues now? Sometimes? Idk, I prefer how I am now.

Don't care I'm a chud that hates immigrants, muslims and queers I will literally kill my children and myself to make them suffer.

Roe Diary

Thought of a sequel comic to my tamagochi one and ohohoho its uh. Its gonna be good lol

I do really miss twitter. but the subversive racist propaganda bots will no doubt fuck you up in the long run. All I can do is pray that elon kys.

aw its ok i got it was a typo dw

And they'd be upset that I'd do all this for them and not myself but I just don't feel that same passion to look after me. Idk, on some level I don't care if I live or not but I deeply care about them being happy and safe and not feeling alone.

Idk, like they'd hate it if they knew but I would seriously do anything for my friend. I don't have enough self love yet to like, do it all for me. Knowing I could help them and make them happier is whats had me more driven than I've ever remembered feeling.

And I'm scared I'm going to open up myself and get hurt again with my best friend. I trust them and I wanna do my best but I do sometimes worry that if I don't show I'm useful or like I have some value I'll just get tossed away eventually.

My family, my old friends, even the new roommates I'm living with. I try to be amicable and idk, pleasant? But it just doesn't work. I just feel like a guest in the lives of the people around me and my family only likes a heavily censored version of me. I just wanna go.

It's not totally irrational but I do wish I'd stop fixating on it. It's why I want to go live with people I'm closer to in the first place - BECAUSE I feel unwelcome and unwanted where I live and have my whole life. I got treated like a nuisance so much growing up and in my early life.

Been having a somewhat recurring thought of like. I wonder if people just see me as a "keep around till I find something better" friend. Like, I guess I just feel really disposable as of late. I kinda worry my value begins and ends there for people I'm really attached to.

I still cant get over the fact Ill be living with my best friend soon. Me and them vs the world. Its surreal how much things have moved along.