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I think the most hurtful thing is to realize none of it was true. The love bombing last year and fake non apology, it was all lies. I got used.

Yearning is such a painful feeling. I'd rather feel physical pain over this. Fuck.

I realized, you ran. Again. I know you'll never answer, I know you'll never see that call.

Are you in pain like I am?

You threw ADHD in my face, but the difference between us is I'm not using it as an excuse to avoid accountability. You think that's the end of the conversation because you CANNOT handle being accountable for anything.

Is this what it feels like to date someone who actually likes me and wants to provide?????

Guess I was just one of your ADHD hyper fixations. Never saw me as a person just something to use until you got bored, like you do with every other thing.

Was just your trial run

Why be accountable when you can just throw money at it to make it go away. To pretend it didn't exist. Performative change, you are so obsessed with how you are perceived that you'll walk over anyone to feel on top. You always have ulterior motives. You are the most selfish person I've ever met.

"I think the most valuable lesson I learned was not me treating you badly, but I shouldn't get caught next time. I don't care that I treated you like shit. Nope, don't regret it one bit. Proud of it in fact"

It's that time of year again where I see that jacket in the wild. Every time I see it, it immediately takes me back to that night. I can feel it on my skin and just the pain and heartache. The sounds the smell. All of it.

Fuck you, Chris.

Fuck, I was doing so good. I hadn't cried in months. Ooooof.

Tattoo #6 gooo!! Eeeeee

Week 2 of my new tattoo! Might need the white touched up a tiny bit, but I love it

Oh to be a cat...

Pass it on

Remember -

you contacted me first

You only reached out because you were lonely and thought I'd fawn like I always did before. Not because you actually feel remorse for how you treated someone you claimed to love. Your actions continue to speak louder than your words.

Pretty sure you were on dating apps while you "apologized" so we could "be together". It's just like the last time. Trying to use me yet again.

You just keep telling yourself that your shitty behavior and treatment shouldn't have ramifications because of "intent" :) I'm definitely not owed an apology for it whatsoever