Claire Waller / Ellie Graves/ Claire Lunn

Anxiety disorders are so much fun… 🤓😭❤️

Oh well, my inability to deal with attention of any kind means I’m back on the Sertraline (for now, at least) - yay manic episodes at the GP again 😬

(why am I like this? I hate it here and I would like to complain to the manager. Too bad the manager is also me, I guess?)

Yay! I'm officially Complicated!

I bought this on the day of release…

… *crumbles to dust*

When my daughters were 3 and 6 they were flower girls for my friends’ lesbian wedding.

Guess what? They’re now lovely, empathetic 14 and 17 yos who adore their aunties.

Fuck right off with this noise.

Thank you Anna ❤️ It’s like everything is so heightened- everything aches, everything’s a crisis, my brain doesn’t work properly and it’s so hard to set aside the worries and just enjoy the ride… RSD is already an issue for me, and peri is making it 100x worse. Now I’m super anxious AND super sweaty🫠

I just want to give you a big hug, have a little cry and say ‘yeah, me too’, cos bloody hell, this is NOT easy.

I’m supposed to be Having A Good Time Right Now. My first Big Book is coming out soon, but everything is SO out of control I just want it all to stop and go away.

I HATE this.

😭 Not another honour run ended by bloody gnolls…

ONE DAY I SHALL GET OUT OF ACT 1!

#baldursgate3

How I feel when someone blocks me:

a man in a military uniform is standing in a room with flags and says `` right to jail , right away '' . Alt: a man in a military uniform is standing in a room with flags and says `` right to jail , right away '' .

Meanwhile, in the UK…

And the stupid thing is, actual, proper working engineers have been saying this for *ages*, but they get told to shut up, you’re not the FUTURE, you don’t KNOW, you just want it to FAIL, when in reality they’re just being realistic - if it worked, they’d be… using it too?

*whispers* I understand - I was too, but I ended up having an existential crisis because I’m Being Perceived so I sorted my pens* out by colour and type again for about the 14th time this year.

*we don’t talk about how many pens I actually own 😬

🤣 if one of us isn’t up a ladder doing something unwise while someone else is replaying the same niche computer game since 1997, and someone else is talking non-stop about *insert current random hyperfixation here* and some one else is making weird noises because they feel nice, is it really home?

My eldest is being assessed for adhd, and youngest for ocd/autism (I reckon she’s Audhd), which makes perfect sense given our family make up - eldest’s ex-bf used to refer to us as a ‘no masking household’ due to all the mad stuff he’d witness. ‘Why don’t you just sit down and watch tv?’ - NOPE! 🤣

Sadly, the waiting list is very long for formal diagnosis, but when an educational psychologist is side-eying you and saying ‘yeah, you might want to talk to your GP about that’ after you ‘jokingly’ talk to her about your symptoms after one of your students had an adhd screening test… 😂

Everything is stacked against us… finding out I’m not just an anxious ball of failure and most likely one of the lost generation of girls with adhd. Teaching at a SEND school was my revelation - where other teachers struggled to reach the adhd kids, I thrived because they were just like me…

G is funny, sweet, loyal and I love him very much. Of course I do - we’ve been together 32 years this year. But bloody hell, it can be challenging when everything has to be run through the ‘will this trigger a meltdown?’ filter, especially when you’re highly likely to be neurodivergent too (adhd).

… 2 weeks before he could sit on it. He will still only sit on one part of it. We’ve had it for 7 years

We need a new mattress. Ours is knackered and I’m in *a lot* of pain, but the thought of a new mattress is stressing him out and causing meltdowns.

Living with autism isn’t easy.

My husband is autistic. I had to get laser tattoo removal after my first tattoo after he had a year-long meltdown because it changed me too much (he thought he could handle it - he couldn’t).

We’ve lived in the same house for 26 years. We’ll never move.

When we bought our new sofa, it took him..

Can we just go back to when "AI" meant a pattern recognition machine that could highlight number discrepancies and analyse biopsies for cancer and all the stuff it's actually really good at, rather than destroying the creative industry and the planet?

Excuse my indelicate language, but I’m EXTREMELY sick to death of all of this right now… oh, fuck this right to hell!! I’m not even kidding when I say that this is enough to make me boycott the game.

And I’m saying that as someone who has been here since 19fucking96.

Just… STOP RUINING EVERYTHING!

(We have other Linux run laptops (not sure which, G sets those up - all I know is one is a complicated bastard that hates me and the other is Ubuntu which I DO know because it has Pingus on it. I like Pingus), but people are mentioning Mint, so I’ll look into that. She says, like she knows anything)

Remember when we thought Vista was The Worst Thing Ever?

Ah, those were the days…

(Linux it is, then. I’m already on my last nerve with my very tightly-controlled Win11 laptop - it only gets used for writing and is in open rebellion because I won’t let it install any slop/365/cloud based shit)

*cries and makes grabby hands for Windows XP*

Indeed. When they go to hug Mickey Mouse, there’s something tangible, rather than pretending a spreadsheet is enjoying ‘his’ Special Happy Poetry Corner, or whatever they’ve deluded themselves into thinking Clippy MK II can do now…

These people are allowed out in public without adult supervision.

(And I bet they’d mock Disney adults crying at meeting a life size mascot of Winnie the Pooh)

When someone says „Scientists do not want you to know“ you can dismiss everything from there on. Scientists want you to know. They are desperate that you know. They can’t shut up about what they found out and want you to know.

Isn’t existence just FABULOUS right now???? 🤓