transsexual gynomorph

maybe lynx plushie will save me even though i’m supposed to be an adult capable of self regulation

i need a robot that knocks me out every night so i cant thing

sorry morning posters i’m crashing out disgustingly again it’s another day ends in y

what am i even saying no one will ever be enough because im unreasonable and stupid and broken and i’m never going to get over my childhood

sure every time i trust someone they either end up not the way i expect or actively fuck me up or are morally encumbered or simply don’t really fill the hole i have but maybe next time it’ll be different somehow

i’m still going to be here tomorrow and i’ll exist and maybe i can keep it up and one day i won’t feel like i have to be big and strong all the time and one day i maybe get to feel safe and not have it ripped away from me in the most painful manner

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How about this #Magpie, they really are beautiful birds that have such a bad rep.

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it would be nice if there was more than hanging in there for the rest of time

i dont suffer in a pretty way or a relatable way i just kinda lash out and scare people away and i really wish i could just be done with it all

i really wish i could isolate away from everyone so i can slowly forget that things can be good for others and be content with solitude

i feel so spiteful and angry and sad and exhausted and stressed and worthless

i haven’t felt this emotionally volatile in years

i genuinely feel so unstable right now

why does it feel like i either have an excuse or i sabotage myself

what’s the filling of the pillow

i could have done so much more prep. i feel like an idiot.

i’m lonely and needy and stupid and undeserving

it’s literally consequence free if i fail but i still just. want to do well. and with everything else going on it’d be nice to have a win. but i don’t think i’ll get it. and that’s fine i guess. idk

i’m gonna try my best and i’m gonna keep it together and i’m gonna review as much as i can beforehand but god i feel like i bit off more than i can chew

the first interview is gonna be with an engineer and product designer and i really think im gonna get grilled on frontend stuff and look like an idiot

i have a really bad feeling about tomorrow

this is my thirteenth reason why

i did not, actually, recently play this playlist. you are mocking me

preconditioning the car only takes like half a kwh. so trading 1/48th of your range for a toasty warm car. not bad

no this isn’t a workout siri i’m walking

this time i’m really gonna do it

can my left foot not start hurting like it’s injured thanks

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it’s not saturday night but we can pretend like it is

story of my fucking life bro