Parth Makeo

I made male characters not even to self insert but cause i had a fun idea here and there. Turning Phobos and Deimos into characters with themes of moving on and healing even though i also made a female to accompany one of the males as his Shikigami.
I never could find myself doing a self insert.

I guess im back in my late night crying bitch fits phase...

I just want people to respond too. I don't want to scream in the void and get nothing in exchange. That fucks with me so much you do not believe. I rather and emoji than nothing to my words. At least I know then you saw it.

Being self conscious is one thing but I legit do not think I am husband material at all. Sure I know how to love, give gifts, understand emotions and such but I've had my share of trial and error. If I had a partner I need a woman that understand my plight and just needs to be there.

I'm also not interested in dating. I have a case of asbergers and can barely keep myself functioning. The last thing I want is to be constantly nagged at by a woman I thought I would find love in because I do things in a different pace or I legit have mental problems.

I live in Connecticut. One of the worst states in America. No one i know even lives here anymore or near it. It's expensive to do anything. They dismantled a lot of hangout places for more designer shops. I want to move but I'm ball and chained until my grandparents die...

To give those I love and care about the most even more shit to worry about that does not really involve them or anything.
This is not leading to suicide letter shit. Just...a depression I have masked for two years. I'm sorry I couldn't be honest.

I hate lying to my closest friends that I'm alright. I know they technically are there for me but I don't want to pass burdens on an loser like myself.
I'm unemployed despite desperately looking for any work, I couldn't do college, social skills are non-existent and the last thing I want is-

Since these things building post pandemic the world has gotten to a situational state where I'm actually gridlocked. Can't do anything without tons of money and can't take risks without true fallbacks. I want to go out more but there isn't anything left to go out for...
I am in purgatory.

Lately it might be me but I have been feeling...empty. despite knowing what I plan to do in the future it all feels so isolated and dead. I want to move out of this horrible state altogether.
Oh and whatever happening as well. I feel so done that I want to go in a coma until it blows over.

Now we need a tarantula best friend who works at a gym and has a pet frog :3

Lily the Spider Maid

And they gasp or go "dont say the lord's name in vain"
I've done this so often they themselves have to make new goal posts as to why God hasn't killed me yet. Things like "Oh he is busy" or "it's not your time."

Brush at least admit you're drinking the cool-aid at this point.

Like call me atheist all you want in this moment, that was the most creepy fucking thing I ever saw with people who believe in this all powerful figure doing jack shit just to somehow try to convert me and convince me this man exists.
"If God exists he should kill me now." I kept saying to them-

Religion ranges from rules to live by to total cults and the sign of a cult i saw immensely in Christianity in the western world. It was reaffirmed when during my cousin's wedding we did it.
On a Sunday
Early for church sermons
Everyone kneeling and in unison reciting what the head guy said. >

As a kid I was christian. I went to Sunday sermons and found it to be a waste of time and boring. I was forced into programs involving the church which also were boring. Eventually I stopped going to church and learned about other "religions". I found out quick that it does not fucking matter. >

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When NINTENDO OF ALL COMPANIES is doing this, you should know by now how fucking abysmal the situation is in general.

I...really hope not but it is a strong possibility.

I just realized we will prob get ff7 themes in 8.0 if the data mined fanfest items AND the narrative are an indication

PLANET IS DYING, WOL

Au'ra deep throat for the soul~♥

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lucked out on a roll for map night. I got myself a Yan :3

I wish I had those 80 bucks back...

Its painful seeing artists open and with vgens with fair prices and I can't do anything but be watching in silence after so many I tried just keep stealing my money.
I'm sorry...I can't risk it in this day and age so I stick to those I trust already...

39 second kill on Rathalos! FUCK YES! (Had just a fraction of a few frames to squeeze in that last Raiton when he was at 9%)

Some art @nepdraws.bsky.social has made of Alyx as of late

New adventures await around every corner.

New bumper stuff. Cait Sith wants the camera.

#gpose

you can still find videos through the search function. Just apparently recommendations and algorythm stuff isn't active.

Every time i see a RDM hardcast Veraero/thunder I just think "It would be nice if the game just disabled the ability to use those so people understand RDM better.

Like it even tells you in tooltips to use Jolt before those hardcasts for dual cast. JUST READ YOUR FREAKING TOOLTIPS! IT'S NOT HARD.