This felt more lighthearted than it reads lol
12.03.2026 01:24
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This felt more lighthearted than it reads lol
Def has something to do with my narcissist dad taking me to auditions my whole childhood whomp whomp therapyyyy
Last month of winter too lol like ok yay for aging too I guess
Does anyone remember that Kids in The Hall sketch where there's a small dog that refuses to do tricks and Kevin McDonald points at its face and says "JUSTIFY YOUR EXISTENCE"?
That's what my birthday month feels like
(Me flossing and thinking about something) I'm filossophizing
Like how many times can a person be love bombed before we stop trusting gestures of interest or affection. Then we're bitches for ignoring bait tactics 🙃. Can't win, stopped trying
People certainly believe crazier things, and I'm not gonna start a cult about it or anything, but this train of thought is soothing and fun to explore. I'm turning 47 this month and am ready for my kooky middle-aged dgaf lady phase
Which *could* mean that in those states our thoughts *could* exist outside of linear time, which *could* mean the signals we receive, those "nudges from the universe", could just be from ourselves, the result of our minds resonating in a delinearized state, accessing impressions of our future
If our minds resonate with quantum fields – which a diverse range of research supports – it follows that in those states we function outside of time. Zero-point fields exist beyond classical mechanics, beyond time – think unconscious "dream time", where temporal linearity no longer applies
Anyway, as I'm reading I've been holding ideas of confluence and the feeling of being "nudged by the universe". Over the past few years I've felt it a lot, at first thinking it was my partner, and maybe he was part of it (I'm not religious), but I have fun casual theory forming...
Reading Roger Penrose now, "one of the greatest mathematical physicists alive", who since the 80s has theorized around quantum states of consciousness, and whose theories are now being heavily explored re: AI
I zoom all the way out sometimes to give my mind a break from the horrors, mostly becoming preoccupied with concepts of time and theoretical physics (started when my husband died because it helped me grieve, BEFORE such topics were considered slop hype)
Also "markets bet the war will end soon" - we're living in a world that bets on war so that's cool but also does it just end with Iran getting buried while taking out whoever they can on the way down?
The Middle East isn't known for short wars and this is literally a hornet's nest. What is happening
And while there have been plenty of pieces out about China and Russia "staying out of it", just last month there was this
www.middleeasteye.net/news/china-h...
Feed isn't showing much about it but everyone is aware Iran is attacking every US ally in the Gulf, yeah? Israel, Saudi Arabia, Qatar, Turkey, UAE, Egypt, Bahrain, Kuwait, Jordan, Oman...
My blog post images are chaotic and I have no shame about it. This one is an "apoppolypse" poster I made way back in 2008.
If the AI bubble bursts and takes the entire capitalist structure with it, I think a ground-up garden economy would be pretty nice.
she-what.ghost.io/hey-what-abo...
And it's not just American/British spelling, it's words like "recontextualized"
Something I'm noticing lately is autocorrect on writing or microblogging platforms is wrong like 10% of the time. Adding this to my pile of eerie disconcerting signals that our cognitive future is in trouble
Effective accelerationism is a cheese-rolling competition, whoever makes it to the bottom alive gets all the cheese. That's what they're doing.
Perhaps the real feeling is that nothing feels very grounded. Everything feels like it can be manipulated/uprooted. That there are very few consequences and whatever happens, no matter how bad, it will be buried in an avalanche of the next thing that is happening. Too much, too fast and no rules
Buckets full of flowers including yarrow, godetia, cerinthe, campanula, pearl yarrow, poppy pods and Iceland poppies.
A close up of yellow rudbeckia with brown centers growing in the garden.
A close up of shirley poppies, pinks, white with pink ends, pale purple.
A wagon in my flower field full of flowers for drying including strawflowers and amaranth.
I had to leave this life behind and it nearly killed me. I'm SO EXCITED to start 'er up again this summer.
An armload of peach, orange, yellow and cream coloured ranunculus.
Me holding a large bunch of salmon, hot pink and pink/white variegated godetia.
Me holding an armload of peach, yellow, white, orange and pink Iceland poppies.
My high tunnel and a row of breadseed poppies - the poppies are peony-style, dark purples and light pinks
Been sorting through photos from my flower farm to use on my new website and ghuuuuhhh
Bluesky is the new science Twitter, new study by @whysharksmatter.bsky.social and Julia Wester concludes!
"Results show that for every reported professional benefit that scientists once gained from Twitter, scientists can now gain that benefit more effectively on Bluesky than on Twitter."
Pictures emerging from today’s heavy bombing of Isfahan. Damages to the mirror works, tiles, floors, and carved wooden doors of Safavid palaces of Aali Qapu and Chehelsotoon. Both of these are within the UNESCO Heritage complex of Naqsh-e Jahan Square. These are 16th-17th century bldgs.
Citizens in a Democracy Must Be Allowed to Criticize Israel
If you cannot say what is true about Israel’s horrific actions in the world, you do not live in a democracy, writes fascism expert Jason Stanley.
Read:
zeteo.com/p/democracy-...
What kills me is the proof of that abductive logic is literally everywhere now and it's clearly showing where we go from here is quite bad, yet it *still* feels impossible to be seen as anything but an alarmist. People are still waiting for the system to tell them what to believe 😭
Almost every dystopian outcome warned about/fought against by thoughtful observes of digital media & machine learning systems over the past ten years has come to pass, of course I'm fucking cranky
