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I don't think this is a problem meds can fix... This is an issue on a fundamental level

My family really only cares if I'm happy and healthy but I still feel like I'm letting everyone down- especially myself. I only chose to pursue animation because, well I didnt have much passion for anything else. I wasn't built for this world, I fear.

I should probably just finally accept that I don't have the mindset to work in the animation industry. I'm not competitive, I only wanna draw fanart all the time, I don't particularly want to work outside of designated work hours... Time to pack it up LOL

Yeaaaaaaa... It's just hard to keep up with things nowadays..

Social media!!

Low-key wanna nuke all my socmed and just keep to myself and friends LOL idk if I'm burnt out or what but being online just isn't that fun anymore!!

Oooo did not know!! Thank you!

Sure! I have to dig into it a bit more but this is one of the initial posts I saw about it. Really trying not to spiral about all this haha!

x.com/AFpost/statu...

A lot of stuff coming in from the Epstein files that came out a few days ago! Some real nasty shit in there so do be warned!

I FORGOR THAT WAS A THING IT HELPED A LOT TY LOL

While one part of me is thriving from the attention the Hugh art is getting rn I'm also getting burnt out from notifs LOL

Nah it's not that. It's just hard to for OC content to get noticed 👊😔 that's any site but Tumblr feels especially difficult lol

Posting to Tumblr feels like this sometimes I swear!! Tough crowd!!

Sometimes it feels like there's something wrong with me fundamentally as a person 😭

Idk maybe I'm just sensitive 🙃 it's hard finding that balance of trying to take a joke vs jokes happening all the time so it gets annoying

I know teasing is all in good fun but coming from both friends and family is starting to wear on my soul a bit lol

I came across some old vent art from high school. Bro... That shit is so embarrassing 😭😭😭

No acception or rejection yet- chat, should I end it all?

If they don't, I won't be upset but I will feel goofy LOLLLL

I applied for a comm on skeb last night... I have no idea if the artist will accept it so I'm a bit nervous LOL

Waiting on one more comm but I'm so BORED... I want MORE... I am a gluttonous beast

Ooooo okokok!! I'm gonna hope they're just taking their time bc of the deadline. Thank you!! 💜

I don't exactly know how skeb works. It says on someone's profile that the average complete time is 10 days but it's been a month... I know they got sick tho so I hope they didn't forget about me! 😭 I'm gonna wait until the auto deadline to speak up but I still can't help but worry!

Awh ty Morton, it means a lot 🥺💜 the same goes for you too!! 💜💜💜 I think I'll be okay tho... I'm pretty much over it now, I just had to be salty for a day LOL

Ugh sometimes things tick me off so much I wish I could just disappear to avoid the discomfort

Ughhhh something came up that really annoyed me but I don't even know if it's worth bringing up. It's stupid, but I feel like I got a little lied to lol

It fries me how good the animation in hazbin hotel is but how absolutely ass the writing is 💀 like if I see clips I gotta watch them muted bc the dialogue and songs just make me want to claw off my skin LOL

Like okay!!

I saw an artist tos that said they won't redraw art from other artists and it reminded me that I didn't block my ex friend on discord and saw their pfp was a redrawn comm they got from me... Pissed me off a bit 😐

Since being medicated I've been winning the idgaf war against things that used to bother me. Tis nice LOL