The day came and went, the event removing a divide long carved by her disdain. I am finally meeting my extended family and there is some relief for my sister and I. I know that’s hard to understand but that’s just how things were. Plans are made and new relationships are forming. I am not sad today.
I am the fixer, the informant, the bitch, the finisher. I had warning of this day and I have made preparations that were within my sights and I'm grateful, because many things I didn't expect have already arisen, and there is more to come. I hope my work will be done well and leaves us all in peace.
Yet there is much to be done, and it will rest on my shoulders even now before that final resting day. Once again I return to that place to fix and care and clean and solve and arrange, only to depart again. I am the one with this role, this is what I do, my own wear and tear no greater than yours.
TW: parental loss
I head to my home state tomorrow for that which I know will overwhelm me. The relationship I had with her eroded and changed so much over my lifetime, she is but a sliver of what I remember. Her now unrecognizable form and the burdens of regret and sorrow haunt me in my travels.
I miss dark. I don’t like any of these. Please bring back dark!
I’ve seen videos of people doing this, especially if they get shot at after a Queen/matriarch and they have a Jupiter or something. Hilarious 🤣
Just when I get ahead, oh wait no I didn’t.
There’s no such thing. There’s just where I am today. I gotta simmer on that a bit, and figure out how that impacts my overall perspective.
I was so ready, and the universe knew. Decided it was time for the next loop.
Forever in the damn loop 😠
HOLY MOLY I been taking some of the right meds for the last two weeks or so and myyyyyy goodness I was not functioning on a level I didn’t even understand until I started functioning again 🤯
One of these days we are gonna have to talk about your curly hair routine maam! It looks great!!
So proud ☺️
Ahh cool I hope you get some feedback!
I think I may borrow this idea! Do you get responses?
Thank you so much!!
Thank you so much!! Right back atcha 😗
Thank you!! 🩷
Flyer for Carrie including her photo that announces she was selected by the Twitch Women's Guild to be a Stream Tech mentor.
Honored to serve in #Twitch Women's Guild as a Stream Tech Mentor. 😳👉👈😊
so grateful for ibuprofen right now. I legit developed quite the little migraine, nausea and all just now and knocked it out in less than an hour 😅
THANK YOU! Finally had the last of my heat styled hair cut off and been kinda shirking modern curly hair conventions and letting it be poofy 😜 it honestly looked even bigger in person haha I’m loving it too 🩷
What, I still stream? No way! Let's play some #FFXIV after a yap, probably.
🔴 Live! twitch.tv/carrie
Love this app!
You know I’ve struggled with this as well, I completely understand how you feel - and I’m glad you are feeling better offline, that’s a positive. I do too. Be in your good feelings, it’s completely okay. It sounds like you need that for now. We love you, and I’m here for you if you ever need.
Happy Birthday to my coolest friend!! 🥳
It’s okay! You are still loved and appreciated. Take care of yourself. 🩷
Hi, I’m still alive, how’s everyone doing?
No u!!! Running is so cool 😍😍
Workout details: time 1:16:09, distance 5.09 miles, 662 total calories, average cadence 149spm, average pace 14’57” per mile, average heart rate 166 bpm.
When I’ve been healthy, I’ve run 5Ks on my treadmill as exercise & am usually tired after. Lately I’ve tapped in to something magic. I can run for ages with my new trick.
I don’t think I’ve run 5 miles before. I only quit bc of my knees. Below max heart rate, breathing through my nose. 💪 #runner
Oh nooooo Meg!! Not cheese!! Ahhh I bet it was so good though 😜
This is huge! I mostly drink water all day, 3-4 quarts, after one coffee in the morning. Drinking water is so essential. It’s easy to not realize how great it is because we’re such incredible creatures that we seem fine without. Great work! You keep going too!
Thank you, I will! No plans to slow down 🩷 would love to say hi during a stream, I’ll be live soon. Very busy at work lately. 😅
